girls just being girls

fashion, accesories, clothes and SHOES. its a girl thing, right?

After I rad my friend's blog about girlish girls and how we should just be ourselves and be comfortable, i had something to say myself. W should just be who we are be it we are addicted to fashion or not, or whatever our style is, correct?

for those who know me, they will know that I'm obsses with fashion, and even more obssesed with shoes. that is just who i am. I read eight fashion magazines every month, and I try new style almost everyday. The only restriction for me is that I'm not allowed to dress too sexy. That and only that.

still, just like pingu had said in her entry, she likes the way that she is comfortable in. And i agree with her. wearing accesories, eyeliner and 5inch wedges everyday is what makes me confident and comfortable, so other bitch can just leave me alone right?

I dont get those kind of girls who are always in people's bussiness. I wear what I want. What makes them more pathethic is, not just that they try to insult girls like me, but more, they suck in dressing themselves. Maybe that's why they are all up and about people's bussiness, because they are ugly and sucky in dressing up, and just jealous.

Different people, different style. If i dont bring those girls who dress sloppy and boyish down, why should them bring me down?

I am smart enough to know that everyone is made unique, with different mind and different ideas of what is nice and what is not. I love myself. I love this different-necklace-different-bracelet-everyday-eyeliner-wearing-with-5inch-shoes-firah, and i dont have a problem with those who just the opposite, so why do they judge?

tell me.

So pingping, just ignore what anybody thinks okay? You just wear what you want, what makes you comfortable.kan? you inspire me :D

bak kata you, everytime all those girls tgk tgk i, kan ayat you "dorg jelaous sbb kita hot" hehe.

bukan bintang biasa?

firts of all, this has NOTHING to do with movie reviews okay? I dont do that kind of things in my blog, but this post does has something to do with that movie, and yeah, a star :)

When I was posting a few earlier post, my random playlist suddenly turn to the BBB song, bukan bintang biasa, and that take me back to my days post-breakup. It was ahard time, and that moment, sydney brought me the soundtrack of this movie, along with the movie too. The songs are catchy, and we analyze and memorize the lyric to this song.

This song is what make me strong throughout the breakup, because i believe I have my own "star" somewhere. That's when I realize that Hafriz is my star. he is always there for me and he did, all through the break-up.

All in all, this song is kinda a motivater for me, maybe it could be yours too, who knows right? Try to listen to it, it may stick to your heart.maybe, just maybe.

N95 and boyfriend

hello people :)

okay, so this batch of photos explains what happens in the last weekend, which is last friday and saturday. What really happen is that, on the Friday, I went home for my midterm hols by hitch hiking in yaya's car. Berrie, who decided last minute to went back to KL, join us too. So there me, berrie, yaya and apiq :D

Its such a short journey when you are having fun inside the car right?

Before yaya send berrie and me to my house, we visited hers. And OMG, her cat, Frosty is so CUTE, seriously. and yeah, very very different than Kykie (my cat). Her cat is friendly, not like mine.

Anyway, after yaya dropped us off, and after i put my bags away, i spend the evening with berrie beside the pool, waiting for mummy to come home. She wanted to treat Berrie some dinner. So off went to Kelana Street Mall, eating Old Town White Coffee at around 7.30pm. After sending my yayang at the nearest LRT station, i was exhausted, but still couldnt sleep. So after berrie arrived home and settled down, we YM all night long.hehe :D

Came next morning, mummy wanted to take me to OU, as usual, and since berrie is bored, i asked of he wanted to come too, and he said YES, with capital letters, seriously. Afterall, I miss him and I need his assistance to buy my new phone. (yes, my nokia express music, the one my mum gave me ask a break-up gift, is broken, virus). We spend half the time at OU going form one handphone shop to another, trying to find the highest trade in rate for my phone. We finally find one and I settled for a N95. I'm sorry mummy for the phone :(

Before we went home, mummy treat us dinner at Chili's and comel giler berrie makan steak, kenyang giler. Terus boroi.hahahaha. and yes, almost forgot, berrie bought me a tshirt. "Little miss giggles" hehehe. thanks sayang :D

So, there nothing much to say exactly, only that I get a new phone and yeah, spend two whole day with Berrie. but still I miss him already :(

the KL tour

This happens on 080808. hehe

Berrie, feeling bad after leaving me for his Caliban gig the last weekend before the 080808, suddenly, out of nowhere, ask me to go for an overnite in Kl. Me, fasting and still groggy from my afternoon nap, feel a little reluctant, but seeing his effort in making it up to me and making me happy, I said YES.

So our journey began. We went to Alor Gajah bus station at around 4pm, but all tickets were sold out, its a friday evening afterall. The only bus left is at 7.30, and with me fasting, Berrie dont want to make me wait long. So, we took the Salira bus to Melaka Centrel (yeah, I took a bus into town, believe it ppl!). Unfortunately, this bus route is through all the village,so it took us about an hour or so to reach Melaka Central. I was still not cranky at this period of time.

Things becomes worse when all tickets sold out too at Central, so we bought the only ticket left, at 8.30. yeah, even later than the Alor gajah's bus. Still, atleast we have something to do here and the bus ride before is not that boring, its quite entertaining actually.

I break my fast at some overpriced malay restaurant, but the food is GOOD. :D

We waited for our bus for around 30 minutes after eating, and I slept halfway through the journey. In the bus, Berrie becomes very romantic and whisper all sweet things (which I wont share with you guys,hehe) in my ear. :D

Once we reached KL, we walked to Paviliion, purchased a 12.30 movie ticket for sex and the city (which im dying to see) and waited. Yeah, we arrived at around 11pm, since the fucking bus is so GOD damn SLOW!

Berrie so badly wanted to make me happy, that's why he offerred to watch Sex and the city, when he knows its a total chick flick and he so miss all the six season on DVD. Still, he knows I'm dying to watch it, so he offered. I love you :D

After the movie is when I get cranky and i am still feeling guilty till now. I got tired (because its an unplanned trip and i fast) and im bored. We only took photos of each other, and just hang around BB. It was fun at first, KL nightlight with your boyfriend,eating mcD at 4am, walk around the empty city, but after u done nothing for hours,u will get cranky too. By 5am, i was constantly screaming and tantrum-ing myself. Poor berrie. Sorry sayang.

We had a fight that morning, but we made it safely back to Melaka in our 10.30am bus.

Actually, despite what I said, I really had fun. I had never done all this crazy stuf with my ex before, and i feel grateful that he make the efforts to try to make me happy. I did enjoy myself. I really did.

On our journey back to Melaka, Berrie cried (sorry syg, terpaksa gak bagitau,hehe), saying that everytime he remembers how happy I am in the movies, it makes him happy.

That afternoon, after both of us had a good sleep in our own room in campus, we met up for last goodbye as he's going to Kelantan for six whole days, for assignment purpose. Its sadder when you spend 24hours with your boy and suddenly he had to leave you for quite sometime, right? :(

I do enjoy myself sayang. Thankyou.

green eyed monster

the green eyed monster, meaning jealousy, right?

to tell the truth, jealousy is one huge mistake that I did in my past relationship. I was easily jealous, and that leads to being too clingy which yes, as you have guess it, the breakup. Still, i learned from my mistake, and improve this new relationship that I had going.

What I have been meaning to say actually is that I'm sorry. To a CERTAIN someone, to a certain SPECIAL someone. I'm sorry if I'm jealous that you had all your fun at all your gigs and shows. I'm just being a sour grape because I had to stay put and live a BORING weekend for three week straight. I'm sorry. And I didnt mean to be clingy, or in othr words, mengongkong.

I will learn from my mistakes. I promise.

I had grown, I had mature.

If this happens a year ago, I would have a huge fight, but now, I just stay calm and let it all go. My new principles now is that, if its over, then its over, i leave it all to fate. I know that we human should fight for what we want, but sometimes im tired to stay in a TOO long fight, its time to sit back and relax, and just watch what will happen.

But still, whatever happens, I still love you dearly.

the pink shirt :)

The pink shirt issue.

haha, it will never ever end, right?

hehe, I remember this topic because yesterday I saw a certain someone wears pink. someone who used to be scared to wear pink stuff. He said it will make him looks soft, and yes, gay. But isnt that a stereotype? ;p

For me, guys who wears pink shirts or pink stuff is considered brave, stylish and yeah, MACHO. To me, real guys who feel they will become "soft" if they wear pink must be a soft guy to start with, or they wont feel scared to wear it. real macho,straight guys wears pink with no problem at all. Plus, I think that if you are really a hot and somewhat macho guy, you will look EVEN greater in pink shirt, or tie or anything, rather than making you look soft or gay-ish.

final words, I think guys who wear pink stuff rocks!

You guys are the real stuff man! :D

p/s: yayang, i hope you will atleast consider to wear pink after this ;p

friendship,relationship

name:frhzlkf

status:thirsty

song:bandages by hot hot heat

current issues:jom kawen :D

i want to get married.

yes, you heard me right. I wanna get married.haha.

But yeah, if I could, i would. why? because the idea of being in a happy family just look soooo good and appealing to me right now. Still, when I picture myself being married (to berrie, of course), I picture both of us already successfull and rich and wealthy and all that sorts. So that meand taht I'm not actually ready to get married NOW, right? hehe

Sometimes relationships, be it friendship of being inlove, is just too complicated, doesnt it? Its so hard to know if someone is really sincere to be your friend or they are up to something, and same goes to boyfriend and girlfriend. I learned all this when I entered my university life. There are just too many backstabbers all OVER.

How do we know which relationship, be it friendship or special relationship, is for sure? Is it by the way they care about you? Is it by what they are willing to do for you? or is it by how much they are willing to spend for you? I guess it differ according to people, doesnt it? I guess, somehow we just wont know at all.

But for me, the purest, truest friendship of all is the kind that will tell you straight to your face what she/he is feeling, with good intentions, never let anyone(boyfriends or girlfriends, especially) come between them and yeah, be there for each other no matter what.

I'm not saying that I'm the ULTIMATE bestfriend, but atleast I try to be.

and for those who are my real bestfriends (i think you guys know who you are, kan kan kan?), i love you guys so much and thanks for everything. You guys are great.

To berrie, I love you so much and I hope you will never again repeat all the things you did that hurt me, and everything is going on well now, and yes, I hope for it to be forever yayang. insyallah, aminn.

To my ex, you taught me everything jugak, without you, I wont even know berrie and you had make me a better girlfriend to berrie now. thankyou for the experience. You are still a part of a realtionship, past relationship, in my life.

stupid morning program

name:firahzulkifli

status:merajuk

song:here in my home by malaysian artists

current issues: kppkp or whatever it is called

its a God damn Saturday, which we are supposed to sleep in till late afternoon. Atleast that is what I did every week, supposedly, but nope, not today. Why? Because my beloved UiTM have this stupid program that is called kpp, or was it kpkp? I dont really give a damn. And yeah, we have to attend it every semester. But this sem's is extra ridiculous and stupid. The speaker is very rude and it seems that she herself is forced to give the speech just like we ourself is forced to attend the stupid seminar program thingy. And its only for two hours. tolonglah weyhh.

Still, the bright side is that I get to take the above picture with Berrie :D

and yeah, Im merajuking with him now because he's in KL watching the Caliban concert while I'm so bored and So stuck here in the stupid campus. Huwaaaa, where is the justice people??

hehe, still, im going to continue to merajuk with him for as long that I could ;p

happy 11th yayang :D

happy 11th anniversary my yayang :D

i know that we have been through a lot this month, with the crisis that almost break us apart. despite all that, you know that I will always love you yayang. Still, I wont ever let you take me for granted again, and that's the price that you have to pay. But still, I know we are better and stronger now,right?

I love you so much and wish to be yours forever.

Hope things will get better for us in the future okay yayang?

mwuahmwuah to my lalink

a day with amina ;p

name:frhzlkf status:kenyang gegiler ;p song: if i go by nerdluck current issues:nothing much

okay, so those are the pictures that I took last Sunday, when I came home for the weekend to PJ, where the horrible "daddy" crisis came up. But still, after all that, I went to OU with mummy, my sis and ms amina syarfina the next day.haha. We had a LOT of fun. plus the fact that it's megasale season, oh god I'm in heaven :D

and yeah, its the best way to forget about HIM, even for a while. :(

So I bought two blouses, one shades and one necklace for the day, and yeah, all my magazines, of course :D

That night amina and me gossipped all night long, as usual, about all kind of stuff. I think its a nice sleepover, minus the dad incident the day before.

Nothing much I wanna say in this post, just that I miss home so much, since I dont practically enjoy my last visit, obviously ;(

and yeah, that its kinda fun to have a friend near when all this happens. THANKS GUYS.muahmuah :D