adjustment.

so, i've been very bored today. both my sis and bro went out to settle their car "bussiness", with my sis repairing her window and my bro's new car arrived today. My mum left me for grocery shopping (because i was still asleep,hehe) and i was so damn bored for the whole day.

My boyfriend is having the time of his life in melaka. yes, he finished the same day as i am, but he stayed in melaka because his friends are still there. He played futsal today, went out with his juniors yesterday, having battle between the levels just now and so many activities. I am so jealous.haha.

Still, im going out again tomorrow :)

So, because i was bored, and yes, I had cleaned my room. I had unpack everything.yes, ECERYTHING, i decided to revamp my blog.

As you can see, i have a new banner, with four of my faces.hehe. and the change of background too. I tried so many backgrounds, and im kinda tired, so for now, i will stay with this one and the search for a better one is still on going.

i hope i will find a good one soon, becaus ethis flowery thing is just too girlish for my taste.hehe

btw, i miss my yayang so muchhhh and hafriz, lembabnye exam habis!

hepybday.

happy birthday daddy :)

although i havent seen you in months, but still wishing you a happy birthday, may Allah bless you and may you enjoy your life well daddy :)

friendship is the best relationship

Until now, I still cant believe I made it, for three whole years.but the best part is, the girls who start off this journey with me, are the ones i ended it with :)

We took off with smiles and laughter, never knowing nor expecting the things to come. but we made it through, because of each other. you guys are the ones im going to miss most, Amina, Sarra and Hanis :)

the last lunch, after exam at alor gajah :)

after exam, dewan bendahara

karoeke sessions with yayang <3>

so hello again :)

im already safe and sound in my hometown (hey, it rhyme!haha )

i had my last paper for the whole diploma on the 21st, and boy, wasnt it a very sentimental day. I had been very emotional for one whole week before that, thinking about goodbyes and flashbacks of memories keep on playing in my head.

So, lets replay what happen within 24 hours before my final day and the rest of the day.

I got back to melaka at around 9.15 am, then I went back to sleep, only to be waken up by amal at 12.00, who ask if I wanted KFC (yumyum).haha. At around 1.00pm, it was raining heavily and I was supposed to go to the library to study with berrie. so amal sent us to the library, and off we go, studying. we met a lot of other friends in there. At around 5.00, we went to the cafe for lunch. It was the last time I will ever eat at abang mira's cafe. ;(

Later that evening, I went back to my house to see all my beloved friends. Instead of studying, hanis, Sarra and me start to talk, gossip and took a trip down memory lane. After all, we were together even since registration, part 1. Because of the good memories, we decided to rung up Amina and play the graduation song (because she cried to that song when we are just in part 1.hehe). She almost cried and said she will come to visit us that night.

and yeah she did, at 2.00am.haha.

so we took another trip down memory lane, remembering everything and updating each other about recent events. It was good. It was kinda the same with what we did the first night after orientation, wayy back in 2006.

So the next day, the final day, early at 9.00am, we took our final paper. It kinda funny, really. Berrie was stopped by mr sharip about his hair. Senul, Azhan and him, but he begged the guy, saying it was his last paper, and he let the gang go. I was scared to death about my red hair after that, but alhamdulilah, I glide in smoothly.

After the exam, all of us say our final goodbyes to classmates, close friends, frennemies etc, hugs and kisses were given and a sad sad feeling creep inside me. Im never gonna see some of them again :(

We went home to change, and right after, Amina took us out for lunch. I think it was a perfect occasion for our last gathering. We ate at alor gajah, and was later joined by hanis' mother and berrie. We took photos, laugh the last laugh and hug and air kissed each other. All six of us (Amina, Sarra, Hanis, Amal, Ain and me).

Right after that, berrie took me out for our last date in melaka. On the journey, i was feeling emotional. I miss my friends and the though that this is probably teh last time im going to round melaka for a long long time, makes me even sadder ;(

berrie took me for karoeke. RM 10 each for four whole hoours. I sang like mad, and i get to spend some alone time with my yayang. I was happy :)

At 7.30, Berrie sent me back, where i finished up my packing just in time for my sis to pick me up. I loaded my things (which took up the whole care, literally and seriously), say goodbye to amal, my neigbours, abang aviator sebelah rumah and.. Melaka. and off i go to KL.

Until now, I still cant believe I made it, for three whole years.but the best part is, the girls who start off this journey with me, are the ones i ended it with :)

We took off with smiles and laughter, never knowing nor expecting the things to come. but we made it through, because of each other. you guys are the ones im going to miss most, Amina, Sarra and Hanis :)

those who never get a chance to have true friends like them were totally at lost. friendship is the best type of relationship, no matter what.

true friends.

okay, im going back to melaka tomorrow, most probably my last time, for one night only. I will back to KL this tuesday for good :)

The whole week i was home, i keep on flash back-ing memories of my three years in melaka. I cant believe im graduating (insyaallah) and i cant believe im done.

So many memories i cherished, about love, friendship and the good times i had with my friends.

Friends come and friends go, but the one who lasted forever are the bests. I know they accept me for who i am, we share the good and the bad together and grow up together. They are with me from the very moment i step foot in the campus and always been there for me. without them I dont think i will make t through. even some had drifted apart after 6 semesters, they are still for me when I had THAT huge fight with that back stabbing ex-bestfriend.

I love them to bits :)

Amina, Sarra, Hanis, Izalea, Syafiq. they are the best. the one i will remember forever.

Who never lied, never back stabbed me, and no matter how we scream at each other, quarrel with each other, have issues about each other, but in the end, we still need each other. and i really appriciate that. I know that true friends will always make their way into good terms again. kalau dah bestfriend tu, gaduh macamana pun, we wont ever break each other's trust and confirm akan baik balik kan korg? :)

i love you guys and gonna miss you guys a lot once we make our own path in the future :)

and cheers to new bestfriends (not just friends) too. ones i will remember and appriciate a lot. Amalina and izzat. although a lot had gone through between us, but still sayang korg. Im glad that we had cleared everything and no more secrets :)

thanks jugak to ex bestfriend because she did what she did, because what she did taught me that not everyone who call themselves our "bestfriends" are really sincere. They can just stabbed you in the back, ngumpat kau sana sini, mengadu sana sini and buat celaka dekat kau. thanks, because of you, i know who really is honest with me. I'm glad.

alhamdulilah :)

yayang.

valentine's day 2009

cafe p. rinduuu

18 april 2009

miss you sayang.

hope we will make it even after degree.

i love you, although we quarrel much.

you make me cry, but you do make me smile.

hardcore burns.

im a masscom student.
i get involve in the media, wheter i like or not. i organizes gigs as a hobby.
I am dating a drummer in a hardcore band. I grew up in school with friends that are crazy about music, paying for jamming sessions with their last penny.
im a concert-goer myself, ready to pay hundreds just to get a backstage pass.
I make new friends who are also in bands. From a band who just started its first gig to an established ones. I heard a lot of stories, and some, I even experience it myself.

a few post before, i condemed indie bands. which soem parts are true. How some of them think that they are major rockstar, demanding hundreds just for a song or two when they are just a nobody. They dont do it for music, but for fame, and that is just wrong.

Now, i get to experienced a hardcore band who is big headed. Yes, now that they are kinda well known, there goes the ego.

Yes, they say that organizers who use the pay to play system, or even asking them to help to sell tickets are money sucking bussinessman.

Well, dont you remember how your band's name get to be this well known? You guys once played with this system too.

Okay, maybe if a band have to pay to get on stage seems insulting. seems like they dont have the music to deserve to be centerstage, but hey, what about helping the organizers to just sell tickets?

sometimes, you have to think in the organizer's point of view. The money we had is not to be enjoyed. Its to cover up the cost of the event.The event where YOUR BAND perform and get new fans everyday.

By using this pay to play system, or helping to sell tickets, we are giving a chance to those new bands out there to perform.

Seriously, do you think anyone would just go ahead and let just some random band perform? of course not. Once these bands perform on a pay to play basis, they get to show the world what they've got; that's it, if they are good. and then they can spread their wings form there. If they have talent, then im sure many others will come chasing after and maybe even throwing money their way.

These p2p system is just a jump start for new bands, like you guys, a few years back.

so please, dont be conceited, remember what and who had brought your band's name to this level.

Keep it in mind that not all organizers out there are aiming for the money, some of them do it for their own passion in music.

if all musicians keep on having an attitude like this, be in powerpop, hardcore, dangdut, emo, or whatever it is out there, the music industry will die.

remember that attitude kills good talent :)

byebye.

byebye diploma and melaka :(

im having my study week right now, and right after this break, im going to go back for one night to melaka for my final exam (one paper only), and then im done.

insyaallah, i will pass, and when i will.. well, byebye diploma, byebye melaka. i had learn a lot through three years in melaka. gain new friends, lost a few. learn what is friendship, betrayal, happiness and so on. got my heart broken, found a love. all i learn in melaka, uitm lendu campus.

i grow up there. i mature myself there, and im going to miss it so bad.

the days of shopping at the limited malls, and limited places. all the hard time just to find some food in the middle of the night.

organizing gigs, meeting new people like kemuncup community, mct, and other organizers had open my eyes about life and the road that lays ahead. there are just so many more that im about to see.

im happy there. happy in uitm melaka :)

im going to miss a lot of people, and i dont care if they dont miss me back.

berrie (i hope we will still be together sayang, insyaallah)

sarra

hanis

amina

amalina

eejat

yaya

syafiq

anas

ain

fizah

ayu

hada

abang sebelah rumah

makguard and pakguard

abang boy dmc

fahmy fahd

alip

kak temah

wani

puppet

berry azrul

nana

four

ayman

sheila

totie

kerang

gomer my son ;)

mira

kamal

mukmin

juita

jan

nadia

amy

mct (Walaupun takda kene mengena, but you guys remind me of melaka :D)

una

fisya

shira

nik

hamzani

ayul

my classmates

my neighbours (korang mmg yang terbaik)

my juniors

my lecturers

and my family in melaka; the one who had take care of me through my break up, my ups and downs, my hard times and also shared my joy.

p/s:sebenarnya ramai lagi, but too many to mention.haha

but sumpah, i will miss you guys a lot, and all the memories, insyaallah, forever :)

mpg photos.

these are some of the photos from the masscom mpg dinner. now that i am home, i can upload it with no distraction.

to view the whole album, i will upload it in my facebook kay?