ex. is it really over?

im so damn tired to think about ex's. And for the first time, its HIS ex.

Not that he's doing anything (i dont THINK so), but everytime her name appear in a conversation, my heart ache and hurts, and I hate it :(

i know my boyfriend after he just recently broke up with his ex, and he seems to be very much inlove with her. You see, my boyfriend is not the type of person who shows his love often, but in her case, even after SHE dumped him, he still says that he will wait for her, and published it on myspace (which the whole world can see).

I know he loves me. I know he really do, and i love him so much too. You can see the doodle in the picture, I wrote doodle like that almost everyday and in every class, thinking of him everytime. but the question is;

is his love for me can EVER be MORE than for his ex, which is his first love?

Can his love for me be greater than that?

I surely hope so, because I certainly love him more than anything in this world :(

misisng him :(

baby. I MISS YOUUU.

sejak bulan puasa ni tak selalu jumpa sangat. Jumpa masa berbuka je. I miss you so much sayang. Missing you make me so cranky tau ;`( I love you and miss you zabarie talep. cant wait for after raya, where we can study together 24/7 and for the holidays to come.we can go for dates before and after you went back to sarawak. and yess, just hang out at my house. Rindu sayang so much :( iloveyouforeverandever

hey. she's 19!

hello everybody :)

im OFFICIALLy nineteen on 13september 2008.

and to make this year special, I have had THREE special celebration from three different groups of my friends. Thanks guys.

And the best, my berrie made a special suprise, thanks to alip, amina and sydney for their help. I love you guys :)

and thanks to pingu,yaya, apiq and myra too for the lovely cake, TODI (haha) and the dinner :)

and hanis, for the little suprise.

thanks korang :)

and there are SO many photos to see, even me myself havent finish uploading it to facebook yet, so stay tuned kay? :)

Just a Cloth On The Head

Appearance DOES seems to matter isnt it? Whatever happen to the saying "dont judge a book by its cover"? What i'm trying to say here is that everyone, everywhere is stereotyping people by what they wear, why cant we try to get to know them first?

Especially, since I entered UiTM, msot keep on stereotyping me and my kind (make-up wearing, fashion concious and hair obssesed people) are always the one who is accused of being the clubbing, alcohol drinking, partying all night long kind of people. Okay, I know that most people who did that IS make-up wearing, fashion concious and hair obssesed people, but hey,not ALL of them is like that okay? The worst accusation ever is me and my kind do all those things mention above because we are NOT WEARING TUDUNG.

Hey what's the deal???

Nowadays, tudung is just a cloth on the head, Whilst NOT all these gediks people club and have free sex, the same goes with these tudung wearing girls. Not ALL of them is nice and sweet and oh-so-pure. they do all the bad things too. Sometmes WORST than the people that you ASSSUMED did it.

Hey, dont get me wrong, NOT everyone of these girls DO IT, but of course, a few did, okay? The exact same thing goes with these party-face girls. Some of them are quite nice okay?

So please dont just assume that just because we care about our hair, make up and clothes and yeah NOT WEARING TUDUNG, we are running around fucking people, drinking and clubbing okay?

Know us, than you JUDGE us.

breaking fast in style ;p

The first day of puasa. haha

Since I was stuck for a VERY long weekend here in Melaka (where it is a holiday for the first day of fasting, which make it two days including the independence day's holiday), I decided to break my first day of fasting outside campus.

So that evening Apiq help me to rent a car (thanks Apiq, so much) and of we go to Melaka. Berrie, Hanis and me. We couldnt decide where to eat. Kamal suggested the berputar restaurant near Sungai Putat, but we dont know where it is, and were too lazy to find it, hehe, so we go to Melaka Mall.

After cruising around Melaka Mall and Jusco, we decided on Nando's.I know, thats all we can get :( But its worth it, kinda, because it has the bottomles sice lemon tea. I ate the half chicken, same goes with berrie. And since he's too full, what's with the drinks, he gave a quarter of his chicken. All in all, i ate 3/4 chicken. That's like almost WHOLE chicken.hahahaha.

Kenyang sangat macam nak muntah ;p

we bought the 5.5 litre of mineral water before we got back. two each for me and hanis. So 4 all together. Its a tiring journey form the front gate of UiTM's to our level four room, isnt it?hehe, but the day was worth it, and im happy. Thanks Hanis, and thanks yayang :D

I love you yayang.

our song

PROMISE by MATCHBOOK ROMANCE

What would you say if I asked you not to go

To forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me

Would you take my hand and never let me go

Promise me you'll never let me go

And now the stars aren't out tonight,

But neither are we to look up at them

Why does hello feel like goodbye?

These memories can't replace,

These wishes I wished and dreams I chased

Take this broken heart and make it right

I feel like I've lost everything when you're gone

Left remembering what it's like to have you here with me

I thought you should know,You're not making this easy

I never thought I'd be the one to say

Please don't, well please don't leave me

I feel like I've lost everything when you're gone

Left remembering what it's like to have you here with me

I thought you should know,You're not making this easy

You're not making this easy (easy, easy, easy...)

Take my hand and never let me go,

Take my hand and never let me go,

Promise me...

You'll never let goYou'll never let goYou'll never let goYou'll never let go

Make this last forever

I feel like I've lost everything when you're gone

Left remembering what it's like to have you here with me

I thought you should know, You're not making this easy

You're not making this easy

You're not making this easy

You're not making this easy

You're not making this easy

I'll fall asleep tonight, 'cause that brings me closer to you

Berrie dedicate this song to me.He sings it while playing the guitar.

Thankyou sayang. I love you so much :D other song in our "OUR SONG" playlist:

- guardian angel by red jumpsuit apparatus

- permysuri by OAG

- cintamu by dgyta

- with you by chris brown

- forever by kristy lee cook

- always be my baby by mariah carey hehe :D

stupidity is the middle name

please dont be so stupid.

please amik tahu dulu the real story.

and PLEASE dont involve kitaorang BERTIGA lah PUKIMAK.

What the fuck?

You dont know the real story, just SHUT UP your fucking mouth. thankyou.

because WE are really not involved in this. Stop being a busybody and pulling people into mess that you created yourself, idiots.

BUNCH of plastics assholes. lakhanat anak haram.

birthday, stressday, anniv day :)

HELLO my everyday people :)

actually, this post (the pictures I mean) has been drafted for quite sometimes, since the events of the photos had taken place on the 30th of august 2008, a day after my ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY.

To make things short, this celebration or should i say, par-tay, is for amina's and berrie's birthday (17 and 20th august) and My anniversary. I planned the whole thing, and let me tell you, the whole event of planning it is sickening and ful of stress. Why? Because I did it particularly ALONE. and what makes it sadder is that its MY anniversary too. I am one of the people who is being celebrated too :(

To make things worst, sarra had to go back SUDDENLY for the weekend and Pingu bailed on me the last minute. I wont get into details, they are my bestfriends and I love them, but seriously guys, Im a little hurt and sad okay? But I forgive you guys, of course :)

Fortunately, althought we had to come back early, at around six pm, the day is still very happening.
I managed to get make the suprise and found the perfect park for the picnic that I've been dying to have (thanks to hanis who had run from publishing talk to help me.love you babe) And everything goes well. We have the cake and the cupcakes, and berrie enjoy himself so much. He keeps whispering in my ear how happy i am and how much he loves me. I LOVE YOU TOO yayang :D

Although i wasted my energy for two weeks, and all my money gone, I'm still happy because my friends enjoy the day and I managed to make my yayang happy.

so, HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY AMINA AND BERRIE and HAPPY ONE EYAR ANNIVERSARY SAYANG on 29th of august :)

oh yeah, for more photos, check out my facebook kay?

happy fasting everybody :)

Heyyyy,

HAPPY FASTING.

janganlah ponteng ponteng lagi. yang tak habis ganti tu, next month doublelah ye ganti. hahahahahahaha. happy fasting :) actually, there's so MANY things that I wanted to write, but first, I will just wish all of you a very good fasting month. will update soon kay :)