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to amalina shahri

i am so so sorry ;(

simplifying.

hello hello everyone :)

for those who had knew me for quite sometime, they will know that I think to much. And most of it are negative stuff. I am the type of girl who have trouble to fall asleep (but when i do, memang lame giler tidur, haha, betul tak kawan kawan?). Right before i close my eyes, i will think about everything.

or like what one of my friend said, i over-analyze everything. every single detail.

I am also the type of girl who is scared about what other people think. For instance, sometime i think about my day and i saw all the flaw, never the good stuff. Then, deep in my mind, I will assumed that everybody else is thinking about it too, criticizing what i had done that day. But actually, what had happen is a very very very small thing that nobody even remembers it. And i end up worry for nothing, over and over again ask the person or apologizing or pondering about it again and again.

my besties and berrie said that I like to 'pikir bukan bukan'

like that day when i went house hunting, I felt so guilty because i cant help eejat with his house, and in my mind i feel like eejat is so mad and me, but the fact is, he doesnt. things like that makes me unhappy, complicated and judgemental most of my life.

So now, thanks to the book above (my sister bought it when she is through a phase too), i felt better. I think less about things that dont really need me to think about it. Stop being so guilty about every single thing and start to think a little more positively.

Now i am a much happier person who can sleep better at night. Alhamdulillah.

thankyou yayang for listening to me ramble and put up with me when im so cranky and sometimes even being mad at you for no reason. I love you for what you are and for what you make me. :)

update lagi.

hello there all the beautiful people :) i went for my medical checkup with hafriz today. and yes, i drove today.hehe. Im already kinda great in that department already.lepas tu kitaorang bosan and pegi jalan jalan dekat kelana square and beli subway sandwich sorang seketul.hahahaha. takde keje betul. and abang subway tu cute kot! anyway, Im so excited about what's going to happen soon. :) here's what is soing to happen in the next few days :

• hanis is coming tomorrow, im gonna pick her up at bkt jalil. at least i will have a gossip buddy for a few days (other than my sis)
• we are going to watch transformers on saturday (my sis had bought teh tickets since lastweek)
• im going to take my house key form sarra on sunday and maybe meet up amal for a more bigger gossip session.hehe
• baby is coming back to kl on tuesday. RINDU GILER NAK MATI
• pick up baby and gi dating kejap
• wednesday is not yet decided between going to melaka to take my cert with hafriz and berrie (and confirmkan dgn eejat and amal) or take berrie to see his house in shah alam, meet his brother (cuak kot)
• the rest of the week will be filled with preparations for degree, but im happy because baby is back :D

so the story goes on :)

i have finished everything else. I had found my house in baiduri, applied my ptptn, went for my med check up, photostats and certified my certs. only the visit to melaka is left for me now. I hope my friends will be able to join me to the trip to melaka because i miss them so much. eventhough during the house hunting I meet up with eejat, but it was such a short meet.

Tak puaskan jat? haha, aku rindu kat kau, sebelum kau masuk broadcast ni.hehehe. cmne pun kad matrix aku 0056 :)

anyway, i hope the rest of the week will be great. yes, i am scared of what the future had planned for me, but insyaallah, i know i can make it, with my family, baby and my great awesome friends, i know i will never ever lost my way :)

future.

last night I went to meet with kak jiha. she is my sister bestfriend since childhood and now she is my senior in advertising.Only one sem senior than me :D

she told me many things last night. On how to survive, what's going on, the do's and the don'ts and so on. We, advertising students have nine subjects and only one, i repeat one, has gotten DL. giler tak? scary dow.haha.anyway, i hope i will cope.she is so excited about me being her junior. hahaha, ade senior jaga dow kali ni ;p

and yeah, i dont have many close friends that is going with me to the same course, and i know it will be the same.

About a stupid bitch mention earlier in my post, I hope she is not in the same course since the fact is not yet confirmed. Although i have never been in the same class a her, but her clique itself is terrifying. Still, she kinda nice when we met once in a while, lets just hope she will do her own things and not behave like her clique. Im tired for another war :)

oh yeah, im crazy about 1234 by plain white t's now :)

checklist.

the degree checklist:

• house hunting with apiq and eejat (eejat datang amik and drive my car)
• fotostats certs and what nots and go to school with hafriz for the stupid chop
• go for medical checkup with hafriz at kjmc
• take berrie from bkt jalil and learn the way to shah alam since i'll be driving alone nanti
• go to melaka with berrie or amal or anybody to take sijil tamat belajar
• discuss about findings (on houses) with my housemates
• buy pin number for ptptn
• apply for ptptn with berrie
• bagi chopstick (my car, bukan the real chopstick) makan

of kites and cousins.

hello hello,

yea, you got that right. those ARE hannah montana the movie tickets. Despite the fact that I has seen it on the premier day itself, I still won 4 tickets from 17 magazines. Umi was supposed to watch it, but she bail at the last minute and sarah and nana (both are my cousins) ended up watching it with me and hafriz, AGAIN.hehe, fun for me but too bad for hafriz.

but thanks sebab teman gak aku :)

So yesterday I went out with my bestest best friends in the whole wide world. There are 8 of us actually, but its so hard to gather all 8 at one time, so we ended just the three of us. Hazzy, Xaty and me, as always ;p

We went to Pyramid at first, and being so bored (selalu sgt keluar sampai bosan dah bila keluar), we watch Alien vs Monsters in 3D version. There goes my 17 bucks, but its kinda worth it. After that we really dont know what to do, so we wnet to Kepong to the taman layang layang.

We are a bunch of losers in kites' flying and is soo not appropriately dress for upacara padang, but we still had fun anywway. We managed to get our kite fly as high as the string let it. kira kitaorang hebatlah jugak sebenarnya.hahahahaha.

we didnt do much, but we did relive our younger years, just hanging out doing nothing. And although many many people come and go in my life, I know that these two will always be there forever :)

and fyi, I drove most of the time. Im getting better at it now :)

:)

alhamdulilah. bachelor in advertising :) and congrats to the rest of my friends. eventhough there's a stupid bitch who gets the same course too, but its okay. still, im happy to be continuing my study with my closest friends, and also the rest : wani, sabri, paan, danny etc, eh ramailahhhh :D but what makes me a little sad is, hafriz dapat kampus bandar melaka ;(

of result and dresses.

mata menangis ;p

so most of you guys know that I cried so bad because of my result. dont get me wrong, bukannye aku fail ke ape.hehe. Just that I thought I could get higher. But still, alhamdulillah. Dl and all. And congrats to hanis and Sarra for getting 4 flats (bestfriends aku pandai, korang jgnlah jeles.hahahaha) and also apiq, amal, yaya,amina and my yayang for all getting DL :)

saya sangat bangga dengan korang :)

anyway, thanks A LOT to:

-mummy <33
-berrie <3
-apiq
-hanis <3
-yaya
-wanie
-zull kemuncup ;p

its because of their words and comfort that make me stop crying and staright away update my blog.hehe :)

and last three days I went and bough a whole load of fabric to make a new baju kurung and also one piece to make my own dress.

I had had this idea since last month, that instead of buying expensive dresses like I always do, why not try and make one. Why? Because a dress is always a piece of fabric and is very simple looking anyway. And Berrie gave me that idea because I always. ALWAYS love to adjust my own existing clothes. Cutting and sewing and trying to turn it into something I love.hehe

so after three days, this is what I had come out with:

(p/s: the straps can be taken out so it can become a tube. I cant believe it did this whole thing from scratch! hehehehe)

my inspiration :)

so what do you think?

movie marathon.

ou is closed :)

on the 4th of june, Hafriz and I decided to do a movie marathon.

Actually, I always do that with my friends from my high school years. We would just pick a day and wtach 3-4 movies back to back. Ahh, I miss the good old days :)

Anyway,it all started because I wanted to see Hannah Montana The Movie. 4th June is when it is release. So Hafriz said he wanted to watch Night at The museum 2, so yeah, I agreed. It is only fair since he already accompany me to watch Hannah. (haha, Hanis dah tak payah teman I lagi ;p) My sis, being bored at home wanted to join us for Hannah. But Ummi called later that night and ask if we wanted to watch 17 again (Zac!!! yeayyy!!!). So we saud why not, afterall we dont really have anything to do.

So we end up watching Hannah at 2.00pm, Museum at 6.15pm and 17 again at 8.55pm.

Boy, it was tiring, but it was also fun.and yeah, I got the Hannah Montana Popcorn set (which hanis will so kill me if I had bought it in front of her.haha)

and oh yeah, I just got my car lastweek. I call it Chopstick :)

mummy's 58th

9th June 2009: mummy said that this year is her best birthday ever :)

I though that too. Why? well, everything seems grander this year. She received a lot of presents. Kakak gave her channel's Allure perfume and abang gave her Elizabeth Arden Mediterian Breeze perfume set. As for me, being broke, no income and so on, went on a gift hunt the day before her birthday with Hafriz. I ended up buying her the CD that she had wanted so badly, a bear which is holding a tin of cookies and a flower bouquet made from ferraro rochers form Famous amos. That is all I can afford, but still, they do burn my pockets. Hey, it almost cost a 100, atleast :p

Sarah, Ummi and Nana join venture gave her a Ms. Read Blouse, fresh form a catalouge and she received so many other things. She is so happy :)

We are supposed to plan her a suprised birthday party. I bough a LOT of party favors, seriously. But kakak had a job interview the very same day, so she was tired. And since she is the party planner, the party when downhill, only to be replace with a party at TGI FRIDAY. And teh best thing, at the table just right beside ours is also having a birthday celebration. And he is turning 57.

how cute is that?

hehe. So mummy and that chinese man wish each other, whic is very very very sweet and cute.

Hell, all the old people is celebrating at TGI's now. How about us? HAHA

i love you mummy, thankyou for everything :)

dream.

last night i had a dream. Althought its kinda weird, but I would categorized it as a nice dream. A GREAT DREAM.

i dreamt that i was hanging out with my besties whom i LOVE so much. Sarra, Hanis, Amina, Alip and Berrie.

We were at my house, it was about 2-3 am, and then Amina and Alip (they were BACK together in this dream, sorry kaklong,hehe) arrived at my house to pick us up for registration. I dont know which campus, but its somewhere far and we were supposed to start the journey at around 5 am.haha.

I guess the scene is at my house is because last semester my groupmates aka my bestfriends, eejat and amal spend a lot of time staying at my house, and maybe i just miss that ;(

Then we just hang out, and many things happen. The usual thing that happen while we are hanging out and having overnights. and yeah, we eat a LOT.

If you are one of the names mentioned and you are reading this, you would know what we usually do right? Its nothing much, but I DO have fun ;(
you know, the overnights, the shopping spree,birthdays celebrations. With you guys around, you even make the experience of going to FESKEM fun.

if you are one of the people mention, and you are reading this, when I woke up, I really miss it, and i regret waking up. I guess I subconsiously miss all of you so much and miss the moments we do stuff together. You guys do know that you are what make my diploma life fun and bearable right?

its hard to explain the dream here, but sumpah, aku rindu giler kat korang and mimpi ni memang wat lagi rindu ;(