sick

I love you yayang, through both the good and the bad.

I love you through anything. always will always do.

No worries, he just had a minor surgery involving an infection. Thankgod mummy and my sis is there to take care of him and all the hospital stuff.

Thankyou for caring for my boyfriend mummy and sis! :)

JPJ

Hello;

im so the very the cuak.

After skipping for one year, I continue my driving lesson last Monday and tomorrow is mt JPJ test.

So wish me luck.

Seriously.

I am so anxious and nervous and scared and everrything else.

Wish me luck kay?

I will update what happen after the test tomorrow :)

that day

my baby's flies back to KL on the 13th.

Why so early? Because he have to perform for a gig on the 14th in Ampang.

After weeks of persuading me and me persuaidng Hafriz, I went to the gig (with Hafriz as my date.hehe). I miss him so much and it was kinda fun.

The gig is not THAT much fun since I dont really like the place. Plus, Hafriz dont really enjoy hardcore stuff so we spend most of our time outside anyway. Still, we enjoy the companion; meaning berrie's bandmates and friends.

Yeah, mcm nak mati aku kena kacau dgn MUKMIN!

Since Pingu cant come because she have "doa selamat", Hafriz is all I've got.

All in all, its something enjoyable :)

happy xmas

happy early merry christmas everyone :D

all hail the queen

i know someone.

and she suprise me.

from wearing tudung and coming from a very nice family, she changed.

she follows her friends.

First. the tudung is gone (of course)

then, come the inappropriate dressing. I dont judge people on how they dress, but I will judge them when that is not who they are. They are follwing the trend, trying to fit in. and that is BAD.

Next, came the booze, clubs and random guys.

thankgod I only know her "just-like-that", or I would be very ashamed to have a friend like that.

Seriously.

I used to look up to people who wears decently, with fantastic attitude to match.

I always wish I will be like them someday.

But the world has changed. People adapt lifestyle from others; their friends, their collegue and so on.Its stupid to see how pathethic malay/muslim people behave nowdays. Drinking without shame and so on.

I know I am not one to judge, seeing I wear short skirts and what not. But I know what I did is wrong, and I dont follow people and I do want to change someday.More, I dont show the whole wide world if I do drink and kissing random guys, thankyou :)

this is why I'm glad to have my friends back home, who will always guide me, and yes, pingu :)

You are my idol. You never ever give in to temptation. You will wear your tudung no matter what happems, no matter where you go or what lifestyle you choose and I salute you for that.

mwuahmwuah babe.

Your my inspiration :)

forever friendship

heyhey,

so, I finally manage to hang out wth ALL eight of my bestfreinds. We went to Putrajaya, Botanical Park and Alamanda. We had known each other for years, and our friendship grows. I miss them a lot, and seeing them again even for that short while makes me happy. I enjoy myself every minute of it, eventhough I was forced to ride a bicycle (which I dont know how).

They are the bestfriends that I will ever had. They are the one who save me from being wild. They teach me how to be more religious throughout the years, and because of them, I am not some culture shock person :)

I guess its true when they say who you are friends with matters :)

We decided to buy a cake and celebrate our birthday together, since we missed out everyone's. So its like all 8 of us, blowing the candle together. It didnt feel akward this time, this reunion.Instead, I feel so happy and wish we dont have to end it.

maybe its true, real friends are forever, no matter how long we are apart :)

twilight

So i had watch the highly anticipated twilight the movie earlier tonight with mummy, dory and hafriz. Actually, its kinda dissapointing for someonw who had read the book. As always, the movie version is always shorter, much less scene and kills our imagination and expectation when we are reading. Right?

Sure, its funnier in the movies and yeah, of course hot (that would be my lovely Cedric in Harry Potter, and now who played Edward,haha) visual aids, and yeah, the baseball scene is fun to watch, but I still thinks the book is WAYYYY better than the movie. Sorry to say.

and yeah, it pissed me off that nobody cares about Cedric before, and now that Pattison plays a wampire, he is lusted by teenagers all over the world. Talk about mainstream people!!

Still, this one particular song that my sister force me to find right after the movie, the song where Bella and Edward dance to during thier prom. The slow dance thingy, really catch my eyes, or in this case, ears. And this is the chorus part that I think is oh so sweet.

and yeah, dedicated to my baby; berrie :)

Flightless Bird, American Mouth by Iron and Wine

I Have I found you?

Flightless bird, jealous, weeping

Or lost you? American mouth

Big bill looming

(yeah, it doesnt make sense, if you see the FULL lyric, it's more ridiculous, but I like the have i found you, lost you part.and it match the melody.hehe)

mind working overtime

yes, really.

That is what I REALLY thinks.

If you look real closely at life, its kinda simple. really. Pkay, maybe not for those who is a single parent and have to raise 4 kids and bills to pay, but basically, yeah. Its simple.

Life is simple and we, OURSELVES makes it complicated.

Making it complicated with questions. Question that we know we dont have the answer to.Questions that is totaly not necessary.

For instance, we should really just back off from other people's life and just think about our own. I'm not asking people to be selfish and selfless here, but in the positive way.

Meaning, we dont need to change our clothes a thousand times just so that we would look at par with our glamorous friends the next day, we dont need to stress ourself with unnecessary tension; we dont really have to listen to what other people have to say. In other words, dont think too much.

Life is actually so much simpler if we just live to make ourselves happy, not others,

Life is much simpler when we are rejecting all negative things and swallowing all things positive.

Life is much simpler when we dont think too much.

hey, so your bestfriend's boyfriend doesnt like you? So what. Its his problem, not yours.

hey, so you dont dress that stylish like your friends? So what, as long as you feel good.

<

hey, so you have a big test coming? So what, just study and give your best shot

hey, so you are fighting during assigments sessions? So what, its just assignments, and they are your friends, everything will be fine.

Hey, so some bitch is spreading rumors about you all over the world? So what, you know its not true, you loved ones knows its not true. She's probably jealous of you anyway.

So, is it true that life is actually simple?

This is for all low-self esteem people out there; you are who you are. Doesnt matter what people say. remember that mouth that insults you are just a bunch of human beings who are not satisfied with their own life like you do.

So you should be proud of who you are :)

and someday others will be too.you'll see. :)

latest gig :)

from this dump..

turned into::

Come one come all! to: ROCKIN` THE SUBURBS

for more info, click: psychedelicmusic

bloody hair

Owh bloody hair :(

after the afamosa trip, I decided to give my hair a trim. Just to cut out the dead split ends and also shorten my bangs. Unfortunately, the stupid hairdresser (which is not friendly and doesnt talk) cut out my bangs very very VERY short and my hair into shoulder length.

The saddest part is, my hair is really slow in the growing department. It took me one year to grwo it this long (the second and third photo) from just shoulder length. My boyf is happy and excited for my long hair, and so DO I. but now I look like V for Vendetta. Seriously. The first photo is what my hair looks like now. And i managed to hide my short vendetta bangs. But if you see it live, its DAMN ugly :(

and one more thing, it is okay to wear the yellow shorts and that mimpyngery t shirt to a hardcore gig? I want to wear the t shirt. so i bought the yellow short to go with it. Is it okay? or I look like someone whose going to the pasar malam?

tagged by pingping penguin 2

1) do you think you're hot?
haha, dependslah

2) upload your favourite picture of you!

3) why do you like that picture?
sbb time tu baru couple and im sincerely happy :D

4) when was the last time you ate pizza?
haritu, frozen pizza :)

5) the last song you listened to?
some hearts by carrie underwood (dedicated to my yayang, i mean every word of the song)

6) what are you doing right now besides this?
ym, myspace, sms with my bestfriends

7) what name would you prefer besides yours?
im happy with my name, thankyou, although ivanka trump would be great ;p

people i tag
1 ; hanis
2 ; eejat
3 ; dyla
4 ; harris
5 ; nazriq
6 ; wana

8) who is number 1?
my level mate, mms friend, housemate and bestfriend :)

9) number 3 is having a relationship with?
haha, not really sure rite now

10) say something about number 5?
best friend ever! always listen to my prob :D

11) how about number 4?
he's my junior, now becoming a lawyer kot?

12) who is number 2?
hahahaha, my partner in crime whom i miss so badly :(

13) finally, tell about number 6.
my primary schhol friend who i meet again through facebook and blog :)

tagged by pingping penguin

1. 7 ciri wanita/lelaki idaman anda.
- sweet
- tak terlalu emotional
- tak vain
- love me for me
- understanding
- can be my bestfriend :)
- tahan dgn my perangai manja and ngada ngada

2. 7 wanita/lelaki yang pernah anda minati sepanjang hidup.
- zabarie talep <3333
- abdul qahhar abdul jalal
- ahmad fahmy fahd abdullah (jujur nih, kalau tipu pun org tetap tau jugak ;p)
- DOUGLAS SEAN ROBB
- PETE WENTZ
- SHANE CRUMPS
- Mohd Sabri bin ntah tak tau ape

3. 7 perasaan sekiranya keluar dengan seseorang yang anda minati.
- nervous
- berdebar debar weyhh
- malu malu
- cover cun
- HAPPY GILER
- senyum non stop
- again, nervous

4. 7 tempat istimewa yang ingin dilawati bersama pasangan anda.
- prom :)
- funfair yg cikai
- Athens
- New York
- Mekah
- eiffel tower
- mana mana je yang ade dark sky filled with starts :)

5. 7 barangan/sesuatu istimewa yang mungkin akan anda hadiahkan pada pasangan anda.
- obviously, drumset
- my love (dah bagi)
- double pedal (dah bagi)
- cymbal (betul ke ejaan? yg kepingan drum tuhh)
- thsirt dan accesorie seperti wallet, selipar dan sbgainye (dah bagi)
- our anniv booklet every month :)
- zuriat yg hebat :D

6. 7 tajuk lagu yang akan anda nyanyikan untuk pasangan anda.
- just wanna be with you - hsm3
- in my life - asna
- tiger lily - matchbook romance
- lucky - jason mraz
- perfect match - ateens
- always be my baby - david cook
- goodbye - miley cyrus

7. 7 rakan yang anda tag dan mahu mereka buat PERIHAL 7 ini.WAJIB!!
- eejat ismail
- hanis zakiyah
- nik yasmine
- nazriq
- shahizwan
- ain zubaidah
- dyla

family ramba

heyho!

last weekend I had a family day. with the whole Q caterers crew.

Its kind of fun since we havent been doing the family thingy for quite sometime.

We had games, barbeque and a whole lot of catching up.

The way we grew apart now (the six cousins) is somekind of a preview of how the future will be like when we had our spouses and kids.

whatever it is, i miss the whole thing :(

mall marathon

heyhye :)

yeah, i know its been so long since i've updated my bloggie, but the internet in this new house sucks!

So, I finally went out from this jungle with my friends last week. I take the chance to renew my simcard, so my dear friends, im back to using my old number if you guys are wondering okay? :)

Its been two years since I've meet up with Harris and I kinda miss him. He's like my little brother.hehe. He was so excited about meeting all of us again (me, hafriz, fana and marwan), he doesnt want to go home. So we cruise around malls, one mall to another, just doing nothing. I'm sure you dont want to hear every detail of my outing, so all in all, I had a great deal of fun, erti kata lain, hilang sikit tahap kerinduan :)

tragedies

hello people :)

bad news. the night before my last final paper, marketing, berrie and I went out to duplicate my house keys, buy my pink dye and meet up with his MFA's friend. and yeah, as most of you had known, I lost my N95. yes, the same N95 that I just bought about what? 3-4 months ago?

And i suspected the auntie who own the rented car that we rent took it. Why? because I had it with me all the way back to UiTM. We had to take a short walk towards the campus after that, so if drop somewhere during the journey, I would have seen it, or hear it.

The biggest mistake is that I call the auntie first, so she may have take it first before I could make my way to see her (yeah, i have to cry in front of the guards to get out since its way past 12 oclock.). And if you guys had seen her expression when I said my phone is off, you guys would suspect her too. (My phone is still ringing everytime I call it but it only went to voicemail when I arrived at the auntie's house)

The pathethic thing is, that bitch who took it use up my credit and my number up to this morning, because yeah, its ringing.

After I cried for two days,I went out to buy a new phone with my brother. We picked up Berrie before we go, since his brother lives near to my new house, and just about 5 meters after we picked him, we got into an accident. A minor one, but still, there goes new handphone :(

btw, we are all safe and happy :))

Fortunately, I just came home from buying my new phone :) Still N95, but it wont never be the same.Still, Alhamdulillah :))

Thankyou Sarra for lending me your handphone (and simcard) for this past few days :))

I know that all the bad things that is happening to me is part of Allah's plan to make me realized something. Maybe I had done wrong to someone, and I'm grateful that Allah still loves me to give me guidance.

Somebody once told me, "Allah Maha Adil, setiap dugaan adalah untuk menyedarkan kita tentang kesilapan kita, jadi terimalah dgn seadanya, bukan menyalahkan orang lain"

thankypu for making me realize that :)

stalker

its simple.

i dont give a damn about a certain someone's life and activities.

but hey, what do you know, they are SO interested in mine. haha

translation: dont you guys have anything better to do than insulting and making fun of people who dont give a damn about you? even the tiniest dot doesnt represent all of you in my life, so im very touched to know that I'm such a huge topic in your life. :))

and please bitches and gays, get a life.

hear both sides of the story before you assume anything okay? afterall, Allah SWT knows the truth and what you guys say or do doesnt effect us at all.

n/r

hello hello :)

i will have to stay outside next semester.

translation: this stupid university kicked 2/4 of next sem's part 6 students and left them own their own to find their own house on the dark and scary residential area in front of the campus when they had promised that all of us will be given a place inside the campus until we graduate from our diploma. assholes.

So, mina get a spot inside, which make hanis, sydney and me dangling on our won to find a house. The search for a house is long and tiring. many problems occur; the house is taken, we have to fight for the house, too expensive and not having enough housemates (since we are only in avery small group of three).

Still, I think we got a house. A few hours earlier, sydney and me had confirmed on a single storey house with three bedrooms for rm450 a month. I think we had confirmed it. Insyaallah.

So, during our tired days of looking for houses, we went out to McD ayer keroh. That McD is my place of zen. Why? because is relaxing to just sits there with your bestfriends and laughing about everything.and the place it musch more serene and quieter compares o other McD's in malls.

So there we are, laughing our ass off again, just like we use to do in our junior years. Now we are reaching for the final semester, and the hope for friendship is always there.

I love you guys :)

friends till MMS (orientation week) till the end.hehe :)

the day

a photographer?

haha, maybe yes, maybe no. I'm just starting to get into the whole big-advance- camera thingy, despite had been having it for over a year.

still, this is not what im going to ramble about in this post.hehe

yesterday I had my first exam paper for this sem's final. entrepreneurship. I hope i did well. I really dont know :(

So after the paper yesterday, berrie borrowed his friend's car (thankyou gomer for lending us your car) and we go out on a date. yippee!! its been too long since went out for a proper date. Afterall, we had a fight two days in a row and he's trying to make up for it.hehe. I will tell you later about the fight :)

We went to mbo first and we watch tropic thunder. the one with ben stiler, jack black and robert downey jr. My opinion on the show? I fell asleep for half an ahour throughout the show. so figure it out yourself.

after that we went to dataran pahlawan. we did nothing much.Just enjoying each other's company. we went to Afamosa and acted like tourist.hehe. i will be doing the whole tourist thing nextsem :D

Then i bought another skirt at brands outlet. Its a white flare mini with eyelet detail. Its so sweet and very very pretty.

I also bough sarra a t-shirt for her birthday (which is on the 29th october). It is a printed tee of a woman's face. I think it is really "her" and im glad she like it. Mina and I were actually planning a suprise celebration for her, but we are kinda tight on time. I bought big apple donuts and Mina was supposed to take her out somewhere, but since its already almost nine, we dont think we could make it. So Mina just take her out and I celebrate her with the donuts later on in our room.

Its kinda frustrating because all of us get somekind of a celebration but she didnt. But we will make it up to her later.

I janji sydney.hehe :)

I dont know why i felt so happy, maybe because i havent went out like this for quite sometime, life is so hactic with finals and what not. Haha, maybe this is the kind of time where we will enjoy life more :)

Oh btw, i love highschool musical 3. hehe. watch it people! and i love love love love the songs: can i have this dance and just wanna be with you.

new home :)

yes people, the picture above is what happen when you are bored out of your mind :) You see, Im at home now for 5 days (study week). I will be back in melaka tomorrow. (sabar eejat, aku nak balik dah ni.haha!)

I came home last sunday to my new house. It is weird to get usd to, but I have too. Seeing my old house empty, make me sad. A stack of memories washed my feelings. I remember 10 years ago, when i entered the old house. I was nine :)

Still, for the sake of my mother, just to see her happy, I pretend that im happy. I started to get used to my new house, new room. Although smaller (mummy just grab what's there because she wants to moved out quick), my room is cozier. I oragnized back all my stuff that my sister had put when she moved it, and i feel a little happy.

even kiki my cat is making herself at home now, after hours hiding under the bed, closet and table when we first brought her here.haha. Now she's all cozy up, sleeping on my mother's bed, sleeping with her every night.

Only, the thought that my dad i somewhere alone in this world makes me alilttle sad. I dont think i will ever see him again.

even after all he did to us, i still love him, and going to miss him. He is afterall, my dad.

I love you dad, eventhough sometimes it hurts. I will always remeber when i was smaller, we used to be so close. Sometimes I cried in the safety of my room, just wishing that I have a normal happy family like most people do. but I know this is a part of God's way to lead me to something better.

After every rainy day, there's always the sunlight.

I miss you dad.

I miss you old home.

and I love you mum.

ramblings

hello hello :))

i just had my second test for entrepeunership this evening. And right now im taking a break from studying. I have two final tests this weekend, multimedia and audio video. After that Im free for a few days (study week) and yeah, back again for final exam :(

Still, i cant wait to go home. Yes and no. I cant wait because i miss my mummy and my cat, no because i will be missing berrie and when i come home, it will be at the new house and i HATE the new house. I miss my current house :(

whatever.

I just cant wait for semester break. i will finish my driving test (insyaallah) and decorate my new room. I guess. And yeah, catch up with my old friends. Miss them A LOT :)

btw, tomorrow there will be a gig in melaka town. i wish i could go. but berrie is saving up and pingu is getting her dean's list scroll tomorrow. So i have no one else. But its okay, i will enjoy myself once i get home to PJ.

God, i really need to shop. again. (Yeah, i just shop earlier this week. i bought a new cute top and a mini skirt at a very VERY cool price!) Still, shopping is always my therapy. And im going to but the third and fourth book in the twilight series :D

Yes, im addicted now.haha

Okay, i finished my rambling.

The conclusion is: I miss free leisure time. I miss my family like the old days. I miss my old friends. I miss dating with my boyf. I just miss the way it used to be.

Do you guys get it?

rindu :(

I miss my yayang so much :((

Both of us are really busy during this two weeks period of time, where we are slammed with final presentations and examinations. Cant wait to dating dating and bercinta bercinta balik with you yayang :))

Study together again like the usual exam hactic time and just being with you.

Rinduuu sangat sangat :(

finally free

remember my super tight schedule from the post below?

Well, today was my last presentation. and im free now :) But only for presentation, not for the exams of course. Still, most of the presentations are okay, great actually. Only ETR (entrepeunership) is a bit suckish. Okay, maybe not a bit suckish, but A LOT.haha, but the lec gave us a second chance.

The greatest thing that happen to was my marketing presentation impressed the lecturer. He loved it very much and his impression on me and my group is wayyy better now. He loved our work, and I'm the CEO for this. So that make me super doubly proud :)) (but i cant do it without you ping and eejat)

Still, behind all these were the worse problem our group had ever had. I dont really want to talk about it, but it involves with people taking advantage, people give up to do the work, sleeping partners (meaning lazy ass who didnt do their work) and involves me crying for three days straight and a few times each day.

I'm so greatful for everything, now all this is over.

So i would like to thank my mummy who gave me words of wisdom, whose words had gave me back my spirit and energy to continue my work.

My yayang who will always comfort me and just by being in his presence is more than enough to make me happy again.

Pingu for always there for me, share all my tears and pain. Knows and understand what I'm going through, sacrife a lot for me. thankyou so much babe :)

and finally, and most special;eejat. i have to admit that is the very first time that I feel so valued in our friendship. All three of us (ping, you and me). Thankyou for caring, even though you do it in little actions such as waking me up every morning, knowing that im tired, back me up when im feeling so down, be there for me when im crying so hard. Although we never show what we meant to each other, but I know now that our friendship is the best.

saya sayang kamu pingu and eejat :))

thankyou for everything.

the ultimate busy-ness

hello :)

right now im just a few minutes away from presenting my flash group assignment.

tomorrow will be my research commnication presentation.

on thursday will be my event management presentation.

on Friday will be newscating.

The saturday will be my MUET workshop.

sunday will be the day I'm going to prepare my other assignments.

and on the monday, will be my marketing and entrepeunership presentation.

There will be afew days of freedom until friday, where i will need to submit my last and final report of marketing and entrepeunership. and ALSO an entrepeunership test :)

wait, its still not finish!

On the weekend is where i will have my final test for multimedia and also audio/video. :)

and finally the study week began.

and off i go to my final exam and CUTI SEM!!! :)

such a luck

hello, im firah.

and saya malang :)

the first week of class after my raya holidays are just the cherry on the top of the cake for the series of badluck and problematic life that i've been having.

want to know what happen?

yesterday my lecturer accused me of signing the attendance for my two bestfriends, which I totally did not, and today, after talking to the lecturer(which he still dont believe me, what the fuck?), i accompany ping to tapau her food, and being the GREAT malang me, I fell down the stairs, and my abck hurt till now.

sakit giler babi nak mati. i hope its nothing serious :(

oh well, with my parents separating, my pj friends accusing me, my assignments piling up, my boyfriend still in sarawak, the two event that happen today is totally NOTHING, right?

haha, oh well,i will just learn to embrace everything and learn to let go. :)

the truth

hello everybody :)

let me summarize what actually happen in my life, currently.

you see, a few moths back, my dad, once again, turns crazy, memaki hamun kami tanpa sebab and he cursed me to be a bohsia when i grow up and fail all my exam, he says this kind of things occasionally when he's angry. And he insulted my mother too, which i probably shouldnt mention here.

for those who knows, you know that my parents had been having crisis for years, even when im too young to know whats going on, their are already on the rocks. So im kind used to it :(

But this time, unfortunately for my dad, my mum decided to move out, and find a new house. The are not divorced, just separated, because mummy thinks that she's too old to get caught up in the whole court/divorce thingy.

FYI, if my mum move out, my dad will have nothing left.His second wife (my stepmum), left him years ago, and he dont make any money. If my mum leave him, he wont have anywhere to stay and all that. So the war begin..

My siblings and I are already afraid of him. Always is. Now he is doing all sorts of thing to convinced my mum not to move. Being too nice and sometimes being nasty and cruel. when it oesnt work on my mum, he starts to psycho us, the children. We are asked to choose between them and what not. And all other things that is very psychotic.

So i am not happy and save in my own home now, And the new house, is small compared to my current house. My room cant fit all stuff, clothes, shoes etc. Plus factor, its far from Petaling Jaya, where i had grow up, where all my friends is. So i am having a terrible emotional disturbance right now. We have to pretend we love the house and everything is all right in support of my mum.

We have to pack our stuff quietly, so that my dad wouldnt see, or else he will psycho us on and on and on again. I'm mentally tired. I'm distracted from my studies and all that.

So my PJ friends, please understand. I know you guys accused me that I had changed because i had new friends and a boyfriend, but its not. I had missed you guys every single minute, remembering all the things that we had done together all the time. Its not that I dont want to go hang out with you guys, but I just cant. I dont want to talk about it, but now, I finally did, just so you guys will understand.

When i moved to the new place, i promised i will ge back in touch with you guys. I tried to tell you what happen to me, but somehow you didnt want to hear.. , so now i let it out in the open. I hope you guys understand and KNOW that i didnt changed at all. I'm still me, and i had missed you guys so bad :(

I'm sorry xaty, hafiz,hazzy, marwan, danny, wanie, mieza, sarah, liyana, amal, arip, paan, nazriq, yvonne.

i missed you guys a lot. i hope u understand.

and to berrie,pingu,sarra,amina,hanis,apiq,yaya,eejat and other close friends, thankyou for being the one place that I know i can count on during this REALLY REALLY rough time in my life.

i hope everything will be over soon. insyaallah,aminn.

happy raya :)

sorry for being very very LATE to wish this, but..

HAPPY RAYA AIDILFITRI.

MAAF ZAHIR AND BATIN.

ampunkan if ada sentap, emo, hina, mengutuk, mengumpat, secara on purpose or not, depan2 or belakang2. Tahun ni 0-0 k, next year buat dosa baru.hee :)