the last weekend

Name:fierah

status:bored.so bored

song:pernahkah kau terfikir by the radios

current issues: the dad-issue and i kinda miss my bestfriend :)

hello people :D

as few of you guys know, my dad is something wrong, and its getting worse now. I wont get into the details, but just say that he is in "the mood" again. For all my bestfriend who reads this, I seek your comfort, really, please. I really need you guys, like RIGHT NOW!

Since this is my last weekend here in pj/kl, before i go back to my oh so 'glamourous" campus in Melaka, I had hoped to spend it with fun fun anf more fun, but i had hoped wrong :(

Because of the daddy related issue, we are all stuck in teh house and mummy turns grumpy too. Might I add that this semester break, I didnt go out with any of my friends, AT ALL, except for the breakfast with my PJ bestfriends, and that was that. How sad is that? For two whole months, I am stuck, yes STUCK, inside the house with fear to go out, afraid that daddy will get his mood again. I am so bored and I miss my life before all this happens. I used to have such an amazing one. Going out with my friends, attend parties and events and what not. Gee, not anymore.

Seriously, I just cant wait to go back to melaka. Although it lack of malls and mummy, atleast I have my friends and fun over there. I know im used to be this happy go lucky person who loves everything, but being a normal human being, i sometimes feels like my life sucks, especially at this particular moment :(

oh man, i really dont know what to look forward to right now..

It's A Mix-Up Gig!

hey,

finally everything is done. After all the hardwork, sitting in fornt of the Pc for four whole days straight trying to find interested bands, emotional breakdowns by everyone and so on, the gig is finally up and ready! yeay.

these are some of the list from the original band list, and yeah, suddenly some of the band cancelled at the last minute and what not. But, that's normal I guess, confirmation and cancellation, right?

And now, this one right here is the REAL flyer for the event. Designed by pingu! Although its hard for her, when Berrie senang senag je reject her first design, she do it again and came out with this wonderful design! Congrats and thankyou Pingu :)

So everybody, come and join the party!! Especially for those who is in melaka this 12july, please just come, we promise to give u a GREAT music event!

and this is my latest fave song, by the Radios (who is playing in our gig.) For all indie lovers. I think you guys will like this song, because i think I do :). The Radios have alot more dancy happy stuff for you to listen too. Check them out! and check this song out! just click the play button!

coffeeshop talk

name:fierah
status:tired
song:take a look at my girlfriend - gym class hereos
current issues:my coffeeshop dream :)

there's something that I have always wanted to do since I was old enough to realize my love for writings. I want to own a cute laptop (i REALLY REALLY WANT A BABY BLUE VAIO PLEASEEEEE!!!) and just sit at any coofeeshop like Starbucks, Coffeebean or San Francisco coffee and just start typing my novel away.

dont you guys just love that?

while just listening to the soft music and just seating,typing away while looking around at the people who walked by. This is something that I have not yet achieve. First because i dont own a laptop; yet. (my dad thinks that I cant take care of my stuff, which is true by the way,hehe, my handphone is a;ways in need of changing, i always dropped my mp3 player and my digicam,my pc is always in need to be sent to repair every sem and so on). Two, i dont know where i can find that kind of place. Just look around, The coffeeshops around Pj and Kl is always crowded. i have no idea where to sit at ;/

However, in not achieving that, I get to find a place which calms me, and its kinda our place, My bestfriend,Hafriz and me. before there were shops there, near U-Parkson back entrance, behind coffeebean in the new wing, OU has this place where they have all these lounge chair and a pianist playing slow songs. Hafriz and me will always just sit there and do stupid jokes and just talk. And its fun, and calming.. I will always know theres a place for us and someone who will ALWAYS be there for me. So the place make my coffeeshop dream came true, or in this case, my "piano dream".haha, until Ou starts to construct shops there, and as the shops grows, my dream dies. :( but atleast i know my coffeeshop dream HAD come true and it will always be our place, hafriz and me :)

i miss you muhammad hafriz abdul jamil ;(

do i belong?

name:fierah
status:confused
song:rooney - im shakin'
current issues: gigs, psychedelic and me, do they mix?



hey :)

for those who already know, you should know what psychedelic music is, but for those who doesnt, well, psychedelic music is a group form by my boyfriend berrie, my bestie pingu and me to create and organize gigs for people to enjoy themselves and also earn a little pocket money. We had had our first gig, the psychedelic gig on the 17th may this year and its kinda great. many people came and all of us had fun.



But for that gig, im not really involved, I dont know how to design, so pingu is incharge of everything about designing, and since berrie is already in a band, he knows other bands and he handles all the band thingy. even on that day itself, i arrived kinda late, arriving only when the fourth band is performing. yes sure, i do the publicity and incharge of the money and economy, but that didnt seem enough.. It looks like im not important enough to be acknowledge as part of the psychedelic team.. Most seem only to know me as "girlfriend berrie/ girlfriend tokey". and i dont want that.. Maybe what i did for only publicity is not enough?



I told berrie about this earlier tonight, and he said " tula, i suruh jaga tiket taknak, jadi mc taknak, bagi flyers taknak" and that kinda hurts me alittle bit. In my defense, i cant take care of the ticket, i arrived late because i have to meet up with my friend from JB that day since she is coming to the gig too. I dont want to be the MC because I dont know this thing and band and everyone only seems to know berrie, and i didnt say i dont want to give out flyers, i was just kidding. I post the flyers on buletin board like once every five seconds.. but the way he said it shows that i really didnt matter at all..



Do i really belong here?



i try to support everything that Berrie did. I went to all his gig when he's performing, but somehow I look like a burden when he has to take care of me while all he wants is to enjoy the show with his friends. But still, he ask me to with him to his gig. i really support him in everything he do, because I love him so.. For once i just wish that he makes ME feel like I belong in his world..



if everything stays this way.. i guess i will just drop out from psychedelic and dont go to any of his gig ever again.



Where do i belong?

bye bye xanga :(

i finally decide what i wanna do. i chose to write here permanently now. so GOODBYE XANGA, where i have been writing in for FOUR WHOLE YEARS. im gonna miss it. so for those who wants to know my past writings, you can still visit www.xanga.com/airaharisa im so going to miss it ;(

the case of the sabun and the "missing-ness" feelings

name:fierah

status:excited

song:metrostation - shake it

current issues: the soap and the missingness feelings ;p

First: I MISS ZABARIE TALEP oiii

and next there's the case of the sabun, or should i call it the softener.hehe.

i followed my mummy and sis to Giant Mall infront of my house today. FYI, mummy LOVES tissues and soaps and softerner and her fave's is comfort. She will takes bottles of them when its under promotion and cheaper.

the case here is, Comfort write there at the labels "free 200ml" which makes it 2.2litres all together right? but its still supposed to go under the pricing of the 2litre bottle. On the giant pamphlet, it said that theres a promotion on the 2 litre comfort, which makes mummy buy THREE bottles at one go.

Arrived at the cash register, the cashier scanned it as the normal price, when asked he dont know anything and we met up with the supervisor, which is SO NOT FRIENDLY and SUCH AN ANGRY FACE.

It turns out that, giant take advantage of teh free 200ml, and charge it. The free 200ml bottles are not "included" in the promotion, which we cab conclude, not exactly "free" anymore! The promotion is only inclusive of the NORMAl 2litre bottle, which is stupid because Comfort is making a promotion, and giving free 200ml on every bottle for the time being.

So, i think its safe to say, stupid GIANT.

and yeah, mummy got a refund back all three bottles.

its still okay when we have the misunderstanding, but its NOT OKAY when they have a very RUDE and UNFRIENDLY manager who had the most ANGRY face i have ever seen.

haha.

seriously, i really really miss my lalink berrie so much ;(

i cant wait to see him again and go on more adventure next semester.

Sometimes I do wonder, what will happen when we finish our diploma or degree? He will be back to Sarawak and we will be so far away from each other. I know he will want to find a job in Kl, but still, he must spend sometime, maybe a LONG time in his hometown right? before having a job?

I told him, that whatever it is, we have to find a way to still make our relationship works. I belive in long distance relationship.

Don't you?

between two worlds

name:fierah
status:okay
song:sorry sorry by rooney
current issues; blogspot and between two worlds :)

hello people :)
first of all, HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!

i have just finish designing my blogspot a few hours earlier and im not quite satisfies with it but i think it will do okay for now.anyway, for the time being, i will write on both page, xanga AND blogspot.hee so, for blogspot readers, visit my xanga page; www.xanga.com/airaharisa and for xanga readers, visit http://www.firahzulkifli.blogspot.com/ okayh? and help me decide where should i permanently write my crappings now:)

anyway, i have put songs on my blogspot profile, which is alesana-this conversation is over, alesana - apology, paramore - misery bussiness, rooney, im shaking,the used - buried myself alive, the wonders - that thing you do, paramore - crushcrushcrush, the used - taste of ink, simple plan - i can wait forever, sum41 - with me, and i spend hours making sure that all songs are played correctly.haha

back to the real story; last night, i "gayut" with berrie, as always. hee (he has the sarawak plan where his supersaver is only RM1 for 100minutes, lucky me!!), and he told me he was so excited to go to the Caliban concert this usgust. He told me not to come. I was a lil taken aback when he specifically TOLD me not to. A few months back, he just said that i can go if i want to, but dont be mad at him if he didnt exactly entertain me, but it was when he TOLD me SPECIFICALLy "takpayahla ikut" which had make me so sad :(
He said that I wont enjoy it and im different, this wont be my kind of thing.He doesnt want me to come because he wants to enjoy the music and he's afraid he might not entertaint me, and abandon me in the middle of the concert (Caliban is some hardcore band). I totally understand his reason but its his words that hurts me.

I know from the beginning that we are different, we are two worlds apart, everybody can see that. My friends were suprised at first that I end up with him, but he treated me so well, and everybody loves him now. Only that, will our differences effects our relationship now?
I hope not. I learn about his passion for music, support his band and listen to his music, and he does the same thing to me, follow me shopping, listen to me talking about shoes and make up, explaining the different type of shoes and my babling about my love novels. So everything should be okay, i believe in that. I just oh so wish that opposite does attracts and teach each other even more.

so does opposite really attracts?

testing :)

still testing my html skills and finding the right design. so how did i do? and still i couldnt decide wether i should stick to my lovely xanga or start my crappings in here. any suggestion?

should i? or should i not?

i have been having a blog for years, eversince i cant remember, and when im too small to know what the hell is internet, i use to write in diaries. i have many of them now :) but for years now i have been using xanga.com, should i change my blog to here?? should i?? i have written a whole lot at xanga though :( help!!