name:fierah
status:confused
song:rooney - im shakin'
current issues: gigs, psychedelic and me, do they mix?
hey :)
for those who already know, you should know what psychedelic music is, but for those who doesnt, well, psychedelic music is a group form by my boyfriend berrie, my bestie pingu and me to create and organize gigs for people to enjoy themselves and also earn a little pocket money. We had had our first gig, the psychedelic gig on the 17th may this year and its kinda great. many people came and all of us had fun.
But for that gig, im not really involved, I dont know how to design, so pingu is incharge of everything about designing, and since berrie is already in a band, he knows other bands and he handles all the band thingy. even on that day itself, i arrived kinda late, arriving only when the fourth band is performing. yes sure, i do the publicity and incharge of the money and economy, but that didnt seem enough.. It looks like im not important enough to be acknowledge as part of the psychedelic team.. Most seem only to know me as "girlfriend berrie/ girlfriend tokey". and i dont want that.. Maybe what i did for only publicity is not enough?
I told berrie about this earlier tonight, and he said " tula, i suruh jaga tiket taknak, jadi mc taknak, bagi flyers taknak" and that kinda hurts me alittle bit. In my defense, i cant take care of the ticket, i arrived late because i have to meet up with my friend from JB that day since she is coming to the gig too. I dont want to be the MC because I dont know this thing and band and everyone only seems to know berrie, and i didnt say i dont want to give out flyers, i was just kidding. I post the flyers on buletin board like once every five seconds.. but the way he said it shows that i really didnt matter at all..
Do i really belong here?
i try to support everything that Berrie did. I went to all his gig when he's performing, but somehow I look like a burden when he has to take care of me while all he wants is to enjoy the show with his friends. But still, he ask me to with him to his gig. i really support him in everything he do, because I love him so.. For once i just wish that he makes ME feel like I belong in his world..
if everything stays this way.. i guess i will just drop out from psychedelic and dont go to any of his gig ever again.
Where do i belong?
status:confused
song:rooney - im shakin'
current issues: gigs, psychedelic and me, do they mix?
hey :)
for those who already know, you should know what psychedelic music is, but for those who doesnt, well, psychedelic music is a group form by my boyfriend berrie, my bestie pingu and me to create and organize gigs for people to enjoy themselves and also earn a little pocket money. We had had our first gig, the psychedelic gig on the 17th may this year and its kinda great. many people came and all of us had fun.
But for that gig, im not really involved, I dont know how to design, so pingu is incharge of everything about designing, and since berrie is already in a band, he knows other bands and he handles all the band thingy. even on that day itself, i arrived kinda late, arriving only when the fourth band is performing. yes sure, i do the publicity and incharge of the money and economy, but that didnt seem enough.. It looks like im not important enough to be acknowledge as part of the psychedelic team.. Most seem only to know me as "girlfriend berrie/ girlfriend tokey". and i dont want that.. Maybe what i did for only publicity is not enough?
I told berrie about this earlier tonight, and he said " tula, i suruh jaga tiket taknak, jadi mc taknak, bagi flyers taknak" and that kinda hurts me alittle bit. In my defense, i cant take care of the ticket, i arrived late because i have to meet up with my friend from JB that day since she is coming to the gig too. I dont want to be the MC because I dont know this thing and band and everyone only seems to know berrie, and i didnt say i dont want to give out flyers, i was just kidding. I post the flyers on buletin board like once every five seconds.. but the way he said it shows that i really didnt matter at all..
Do i really belong here?
i try to support everything that Berrie did. I went to all his gig when he's performing, but somehow I look like a burden when he has to take care of me while all he wants is to enjoy the show with his friends. But still, he ask me to with him to his gig. i really support him in everything he do, because I love him so.. For once i just wish that he makes ME feel like I belong in his world..
if everything stays this way.. i guess i will just drop out from psychedelic and dont go to any of his gig ever again.
Where do i belong?
4 comments:
fierah.. sabar je k. sometimes dia ckp tu dia tak sedar yg dia mengguris perasaan.
maybe you should talk to him. having communication is already half of the battle won.
all the best! love.
aww
lucky him for having you :)
btw, im linking you back :D
senyap senyap je die link :p
ha kalu cam 2 bek ko amik aku jdi jual tiket haha ganti ko..x ya bayar...cewah..aku kan ske wat keje amal
bagus gak soh eejat. penat
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