the reason.

its 6.30am in the morning and i still cant sleep. the same goes for yesterday actually. I have been playing stupid computer games (but entertaining) for hours. FYI, i love those kind of games :)

anyway, i was just letting my mind fly elsewhere when something hit me, and it hit me hard. I am very grateful for those who had love me.

I know that I am quite selfish.
I am spoiled.
I am too pampered.
I always want things to go my way.
I am sometimes wayyy mengada ngada.
I am too honest, sometimes it hurt people.
i always think that i am right.
I will sometimes get cranky and tantrum when i dont get my way

and so many other things that I know, some of you out there, even witout really knowing me, can say.

but im so thankful and appriciate my friends who accept me the way i am, without talking behind my back and just know that i am the way i am.

i may be all those things mentioned above, but when I love and really care about someone, I take it seriously. Friendship means everything to me. I am all those things, but once I learn to love someone, i will do anything for that person and I am truly, honestly, sincerely.

i really do.

my bff's, they are the ones who knows me deep inside, and i thankyou guys for that :)

and to berrie.

I dont know how in the world you can stand me, but you do. I know sometime i take things for granted, but i want you to know i appriciate all the sacrifes you had done for me. Others cant see it, but I do.

How you would walk for miles just to see me because you miss me.
How you would spend your last penny just to be with me.
How you keep all your anger and frustration just to make me happy.
How you know when i get cranky.
How you would do anything in your power to make me happy again whenever I'm down.
How you always take care of me, even when Im being a big baby.
How you try to understand and respect people and things that i love, for my sake.
How you worry about me all the time.
How you leave everything else, just to make sure im okay.
How you would always know what to say to make me smile again.

even before we were together, you already knew what to say. You say the right things when I was so low during my last breakup, and knowing that this somebody named zabarie can make me happy again and to forget all the pain like nobody can at that period of time, is what attracts me to you.i love you so much, and insyaallah, i hope we are meant to be together, because i had never found someone who understands me, take care of me and accept me the way you do.

and that, is the reason how i am what i am.
alhamdulilah for him and my great friends :)