angauangau

Saturday, baby follow mummy and me grocery shopping :)

Ahad tak jumpa.

and this week, EVERYDAY jumpa, setakat ni :)

but yet i miss him like crazy.

yes, you guess it right, I'm back in my angau phase :)

saaayaaang, i miss youuuuuu and i loveee youuuuu <3

thelastweek.

the last week of rockapedia.

super nervous!

and as always, berjuta masalah mula timbul pada saat saat terakhir

but thanks to my SUPERB team, setakat ni alhamdulilah still under control.

ya Allah, berkatilah event kami ok :)

this week dah start busy balik with promotions, photoshoot with OMC, marketing strategies for OMC, new event and so on.

but this is the last week!

after 28th, start fikir pasal practical and golek golek for on whole month. yeay!

rindu.

i miss my baby right now ;(

its only been three days but i missed him like crazy.

saayang, cepatlah nikah supaya saya tak payah jauh dari awak lagi ;(

i love you so much zabarie talep <3

help!

minggu ni sahaja, saya dah beli:

dua miniskirt

satu tube dress

satu cardigan

satu toga dress

dan satu shift dress

my wardrobe cant even be close

i have a severe shopping condition, help me

lovehate.

i love to sing loudly when i'm driving alone

i love all things girly and romantic

i always prefer chick flicks over action movie

i get cranky when i'm hungry

i sing loudly and off key when i'm stressed out

i love nothing more than shopping

i am super sensitive and emotional

i sulk when i dont get what i want

i am childish and there's nothing you can do about it

i treasure sincere and honest relationship

i am loyal and true if i believe you do the same for me

i love outrageous girlish headbands currently

i am obsess with miley cyrus and hannah montana

i am always attracted to what hanis would classify as 'celaka' boys

i love animals very very much

i talk loudly and non  stop

i prefer to say things straight to people's face

i despise fake people

i hate long things

i hate everything slimy and gory

i hate extreme stuff, though i love to watch it

love me or hate me, i dont care,

because believe it or not, i have found someone who love every bits of me, 

the good and the bad and friends who appreciate me and accept me the way i am

i lovelovelove kawan kawan yang saya sayang, hargai and suka <3

and i love you zabarie talep <3

call!

everything is good, for now :)

all my things are unpack and settled down since lastweek.

no drama in my life (pheww, finally)

and everyday is enjoyable.

rockapedia; so far so good.

now, if i can just get the phone call fro my internship, everything will be SUPERB 

iloveyou

zabarie talep

i will love you forever

aa long as i can

insyaallah

you are the best thing that had ever happen to me

i love you so fucking much <3

please.

please dont make the same mistake we all did by trusting her.

please, i beg you

letgo

i'm trying to let go of him

for good

once and for all

forever be my only exception

over

alhamdulilah.

everything is finally over (except for event)

finished the last presentation yesterday.

although its not our usual best, but we are just too tired to care.

already moved out permanently from Baiduri yesterday. made two trips with yayang.

penat nak mati.

now, i need to concentrate on how to organized ALL my stuff from shah alam into this house. urghh

still, i am so happy and sad that i am done.

sad because no more coming home to gossiping with Hanis, no more going to class and have fun all day during classes, no more assignments' stress, no more just going one level above to yayang's, hanging out at yayang's place, lepaking for lunch and dinner with bff and so on ;(

yet, i am so happy to leave behind all my 'so-called' friends, fake people and very very toxic environment.

i hope i will get through this change, insyaallah :)

happyhappy

sir khairudin murad dah message kata proceed to hard cover binding

final report ROCKAPEDIA dah siap, nak print dah

finally got my period today after it skipped last month (making me super stressed!)

and finally tomorrow i will move out from this toxic environment FOREVER.

alhamdulilah, everything finally turns out well, it always does.

thankyou god for giving me the strength to get through this :)

deepdpression

i am having a really bad depression.

i just want to move out from baiduri.

just one more adv campaign and i am done.

my stuff are mostly gone, back home.

i just want to get away from this really toxic environment and toxic friends.

Ya Allah, give me strength

just 3 more days..

official.

dah officially confront.

dah officially putus kawan.

and officially never been so happy and relieved in my entire life :)

amalina shahri

AMALINA SHAHRI,

saya dah dapat tahu cerita awak buat tentang saya dekat nik.

awak cakap saya kata dia flirt around, pelacur, classmate saya tak suka dia, saya burukkan dia dekat fahmi, housemate berrie kata dia pelacur dan sebagainya.

macamana awak boleh kreatif sangat?

cuba nyatakan saatnya bila saya cakap macamtu?

saya bukan taknak confront, tapi dengan awak ni, saya dah malas. kalaua saya confront pun, konfirm awak akan terus menipu dan menipu.

untuk pengetahuan awak, SEMUA ORANG tahu awak kuat menipu, maka tak perlulah awak berpura pura macam saya ni jahat, buat cerita dan sebagainya.

semua orang tahu awak kuat mungkir janji, perasan, up kan diri sendiri, bila orang cerita masalah, awak mesti nak relate dengan diri awak jugak, dan macam macam lagi.

and untuk pengetahuan jugak, semua orang tahu awak suka tipu RESULT awak, tipu kononnya sakit, semua benda selagi boleh tipu nak tipu.

ingat kitaorang semua bodoh ke?

kitaorang selama ni buat buat percaya je depan awak, tapi sebenarnya semua malas nak layan awak.

awak boleh kata saya kejam publish public macamni, tapi awak pikir balik, awak tak kejam ke BUAT CERITA PASAL SAYA sampai saya boleh putus kawan dengan nik?

sekarang baru saya pahamlah kenapa awak asik takda kawan yang kekal.

semua kawan kawan awak semua tak suka awak sebenarnya, ni saya nak inform.

YOU DONT HAVE REAL FRIENDS.

so sudah sudahlah menipu, kesabaran orang ada tahapnya.

mulai sekarang kita officially putus kawan ok?

kalau tak puas hati, datang cari aku face to face, no problem!

and kalau awak tunjuk pun benda ni dekat kawan kawan awak and dorg pun nk marah saya, hina saya, mengata saya etc, I DONT GIVE A DAMN. suruh dorg tanya saya sendiri apa jadi and saya akan explain macamana awak tu sebenarnya KAKI PENIPU.

housemate housemat lain and kawan kawan lain pun boleh tolong explain jugak!

wishes

happy 22nd birthday sarra nadira sydney saifuddin

and 

happy 38 months anniversary my annoying monkey.

i love you more and more every single second of every day.

self-inflicted

to the one that has been making me all smiles with just the thought of you

i want you to know that adoring you is killing me

thinking about you all the time is killing me

i am so very addicted to you :)

i'm going down in flames for you

baby, you are the weapon i choose

these wounds are self inflicted

one more thing i'm addicted to

?

the night didnt turn out to be what i had hoped it would be.

its not just that one tiny thing sayang

but you've got to see the whole picture.

heartbroken, disappointed, sad

didnt even hoped that you would call or message me

because i know you wont.

three years we have been together, dont you know anything about me?

anything at all?

you.

i'm studying hardcore style for my two back to back papers starting this monday.

but i'm still thinking about you.

always think about you.

just can't stop thinking about you.

did you ever think about me too?

perry

if you want me
it take more than a wink
more than a drink
more than you think
some don't have the patience 
Some call me high maintenance 

Cause I can be bought but you'll pay the cost 
If you can afford me 
If you want me 
I don't need your dollar bills 
I just want something real 
'Cause nothing's free 
Except loving me 

A!

SPSS saya corrupt.

terpaksa kira questionnaire sebanyak 100 helai x 14 soalan dengan cara manual.

En Khairudin Murad, silalah tengok effort saya dan kurniakanlah saya A, ok?

karma.

kawan kawan sekarang banyak tidak menghargai 

dan juga pandai menggunakan orang.

kan?

but its okay, karma is a bitch :)

end

for those who had known me, you already know the fact that i am very emotional.

and this is one of my emotional stages ;(

in a month, i will end my life as a student. I felt lost and trap inside my own thoughts for weeks now. I feel sad knowing that I wont be able to come home after class to my rented house full of friends, updating each other, I wont be able to excitedly wake up every morning to go to class, no more pressure rushing for assignment dateline, wont be able to had mamak breaks between study sessions and so on.

It is coming to an end. rapidly.

I am so alone at home, mama works all day long, abang and kakak is working too.

i know everything wont be the same once i moved out from this rented house and end my life as a student.

no doubt that i will come back right after practical for my masters but it just wont be the same.

if anything, korang, saya amat akan merindui korangggg ;'(

hush

apa yang awak akan lakukan

kalau..

saya kata yang saya amat amat cintakan awak?

shhh

saya angau tak ingat dunia.

only hanis tahu siapa

WORK

en.khai

En. Khairudin Murad, tolonglah berikan saya A untuk academic writing , ok?

eejat

babii,

aku rindu kaulah sial ;(

siapa suruh kau pegi imbas kenangan lama kita malam malam ni.

kan aku dah sedih, touching, emo.

eejat, walaupun kau sangat celaka, but you are a good friend to me and i will always remember every second when we are together.

goodluck for the future, i know you will do well

i am gonna miss you so much :)

♥

dia tak mungkin tahu perasaan saya.

tapi saya perlu awak tahu

walau saya nampak macam sangat sukakan dia

tapi hanya awak yang saya memang sangat cinta.

saya janji akan sayang awak.

i cant promise you forever, its not mine to say, but I promise you that right here right now, I want to feel this feeling of being in love with you to stay forever.

..

I am balancing my individual work, group work, discussions, presentations, study for finals and the event.

I feel like I can drop dead right here right now, but I am handling it.

ALHAMDULILAH

and Insya-allah I can do it awesomely.aminn

every success I achieve, its all for you mama ♥

-

*gambar diatas hanyalah hiasan sempena majlis anugerah dekan,hehe*

8saya sangat happy sebab kali ni banyak kawan kawan dapat DL, maka saya tak kesunyian mcm semester lalu*

since becoming project manager for rockapedia, i have lost weight, sleep deprived, makan tak sempat,super stressed out, jerawat pun bertambah.

but i had fun doing it with all my friends.

masalah confirmlah ada, but we will deal it together.

and saya rasa sangat rapat sekarang dengan budak budak promotion.

i really had fun lepak dengan korang okeyh! :)

studyweek is here, but there's still many presentation nextweek.

wish me luck and of course, come to our event :D