valentine

what is it to me?

well, I know most of us muslim thinks its wrong to celebrate it. yes, I admit its true. but its all up to WHY you want to celebrate it. I wanted it because the day seems special to me. Yes, people then will ask, everyday can be special. everyday we can show our love to our loved ones.

yes, i know that's true. But on this special day, the whole world will share the love with you.
everywhere you go, you will feel the love, the happiness.
Its just some special day.
You dont have to celebrate it because of the real reason.

Just celebrate it because you want something special for your loved ones.

and i just want someone to celebrate me..

I want that day to be the day, the only day, that I will not be treated as equal with my boyfriend, but as a princess. The day where everything is paid for, where everything is special and sweet. Everything just for me.

Since my boyf dont wanna celebrate it anymore, i guess i wont ever feel it ever again.

atleast i felt how beautiful that day can be, in 2005.

thankyou hafriz for atleast making me live the experience of valentine's day :)

sighhhhh

i am greatful for everything I have. my mummy, my family, my beloved friends, my cat, my boyfriend lived comfortably, get the proper education and so on. but I'm only human. and sometimes i CAN be ungreatful. although im really angau giler babi semalam (ntahlah ping, i pun xtau nape i angau), sometimes i wish that i could get someone to love me so damn much. Too much. because sometimes, i love to be loved in return and also angau-ed in return..

rockin the suburbs

remember the flyers i posted a few post earlier?

rockin the suburbs?

well, it already happen last 18th january :)

It went SO WELL. and i'm so happy.

The crowd is great, the preparation is perfect, the photos are cool and we are getting more demand for events. I really think this gig thingy will be serious soon. and yeah, we get many new crews now :D

for those who missed out our event, feel free to come to our next kay? because we try so hard to make the event goes on smoothly.

Wish us luck for the next event.

here are some photos.

for all hundreds of them, check out my facebook, I have 8 albums of this event alone!

(and yeah, sila tag diri anda sendiri ye, saya tak larat nak tag kat facebbok tu. LAPAN album kot!)

new leaf

okay.

its kinda hard and ridiculous if I were to write on EVERYTHING that happen to me since I last write in this blog, so I will just tell you the one that matters. haha.

The new semester is GREAT. I only have one day of class each week, which is on Thursday, and all the free time in the world. So with the free time and no curfew (since im staying outside campus now), I went out shopping and enjoying myself no stop.hehe. Those pictures above are when we went out for Amalina's birthday, 15th january.

"Dont worry babe, whatever happens, you will always have us :)"

Pingu spend about four nights at my house and we had all the fun in the world. It was the greatest sleepover ever. When she went back to her room, I missed her a lot :(

yeah, I do. I miss you ping, when you went away.



nothing much had been done that night, just some fun fair action, shisha-ing, karoeke etc, but what makes it fun is because of teh COMPANY.

we shouted, we laughed, we make stupid jokes and laugh at every single thing.

Its the kind of things I usually do with my friends at home, and i miss that.hehe.

good to feel that way again.

and yeah, happy birthday amal :)

updates

new year updates :)

1. I wanna wish all of you a VERY happy new year. May 2009 be a much better year for everyone.

2. I cant write long because my computer is in Melaka now, safely in my room.

3. I went to Melaka last sunday to register and stayed for a day to get my whole house ready for the new semester. (since i am no longer living in hostel, im renting a house near the campus with my besties)

4. I went to Penang for the newyear's. That is why I'm home right now. But i will be back in melaka tomorrow.

5. I will update my holidays pic and entry after I get my own computer back :)

6.I failed my JPJ test, ONLY on the road (I pass the bukit, parking and 3 point turn)

7. Im taking my test again nextweek and I'm freaking out

8. Up to this minute, I only have 2 classes this semester and both is on Thursday. So I have the other 6 days FREE.

9. Berrie is all well now and is in Melaka, waiting for me.hehe

10. I miss him so much, and I miss my friends too. I'm trying to be a better person this year and I hope it will be fulfilled. :)

sick

I love you yayang, through both the good and the bad.

I love you through anything. always will always do.

No worries, he just had a minor surgery involving an infection. Thankgod mummy and my sis is there to take care of him and all the hospital stuff.

Thankyou for caring for my boyfriend mummy and sis! :)

JPJ

Hello;

im so the very the cuak.

After skipping for one year, I continue my driving lesson last Monday and tomorrow is mt JPJ test.

So wish me luck.

Seriously.

I am so anxious and nervous and scared and everrything else.

Wish me luck kay?

I will update what happen after the test tomorrow :)

that day

my baby's flies back to KL on the 13th.

Why so early? Because he have to perform for a gig on the 14th in Ampang.

After weeks of persuading me and me persuaidng Hafriz, I went to the gig (with Hafriz as my date.hehe). I miss him so much and it was kinda fun.

The gig is not THAT much fun since I dont really like the place. Plus, Hafriz dont really enjoy hardcore stuff so we spend most of our time outside anyway. Still, we enjoy the companion; meaning berrie's bandmates and friends.

Yeah, mcm nak mati aku kena kacau dgn MUKMIN!

Since Pingu cant come because she have "doa selamat", Hafriz is all I've got.

All in all, its something enjoyable :)

happy xmas

happy early merry christmas everyone :D

all hail the queen

i know someone.

and she suprise me.

from wearing tudung and coming from a very nice family, she changed.

she follows her friends.

First. the tudung is gone (of course)

then, come the inappropriate dressing. I dont judge people on how they dress, but I will judge them when that is not who they are. They are follwing the trend, trying to fit in. and that is BAD.

Next, came the booze, clubs and random guys.

thankgod I only know her "just-like-that", or I would be very ashamed to have a friend like that.

Seriously.

I used to look up to people who wears decently, with fantastic attitude to match.

I always wish I will be like them someday.

But the world has changed. People adapt lifestyle from others; their friends, their collegue and so on.Its stupid to see how pathethic malay/muslim people behave nowdays. Drinking without shame and so on.

I know I am not one to judge, seeing I wear short skirts and what not. But I know what I did is wrong, and I dont follow people and I do want to change someday.More, I dont show the whole wide world if I do drink and kissing random guys, thankyou :)

this is why I'm glad to have my friends back home, who will always guide me, and yes, pingu :)

You are my idol. You never ever give in to temptation. You will wear your tudung no matter what happems, no matter where you go or what lifestyle you choose and I salute you for that.

mwuahmwuah babe.

Your my inspiration :)

forever friendship

heyhey,

so, I finally manage to hang out wth ALL eight of my bestfreinds. We went to Putrajaya, Botanical Park and Alamanda. We had known each other for years, and our friendship grows. I miss them a lot, and seeing them again even for that short while makes me happy. I enjoy myself every minute of it, eventhough I was forced to ride a bicycle (which I dont know how).

They are the bestfriends that I will ever had. They are the one who save me from being wild. They teach me how to be more religious throughout the years, and because of them, I am not some culture shock person :)

I guess its true when they say who you are friends with matters :)

We decided to buy a cake and celebrate our birthday together, since we missed out everyone's. So its like all 8 of us, blowing the candle together. It didnt feel akward this time, this reunion.Instead, I feel so happy and wish we dont have to end it.

maybe its true, real friends are forever, no matter how long we are apart :)

twilight

So i had watch the highly anticipated twilight the movie earlier tonight with mummy, dory and hafriz. Actually, its kinda dissapointing for someonw who had read the book. As always, the movie version is always shorter, much less scene and kills our imagination and expectation when we are reading. Right?

Sure, its funnier in the movies and yeah, of course hot (that would be my lovely Cedric in Harry Potter, and now who played Edward,haha) visual aids, and yeah, the baseball scene is fun to watch, but I still thinks the book is WAYYYY better than the movie. Sorry to say.

and yeah, it pissed me off that nobody cares about Cedric before, and now that Pattison plays a wampire, he is lusted by teenagers all over the world. Talk about mainstream people!!

Still, this one particular song that my sister force me to find right after the movie, the song where Bella and Edward dance to during thier prom. The slow dance thingy, really catch my eyes, or in this case, ears. And this is the chorus part that I think is oh so sweet.

and yeah, dedicated to my baby; berrie :)

Flightless Bird, American Mouth by Iron and Wine

I Have I found you?

Flightless bird, jealous, weeping

Or lost you? American mouth

Big bill looming

(yeah, it doesnt make sense, if you see the FULL lyric, it's more ridiculous, but I like the have i found you, lost you part.and it match the melody.hehe)

mind working overtime

yes, really.

That is what I REALLY thinks.

If you look real closely at life, its kinda simple. really. Pkay, maybe not for those who is a single parent and have to raise 4 kids and bills to pay, but basically, yeah. Its simple.

Life is simple and we, OURSELVES makes it complicated.

Making it complicated with questions. Question that we know we dont have the answer to.Questions that is totaly not necessary.

For instance, we should really just back off from other people's life and just think about our own. I'm not asking people to be selfish and selfless here, but in the positive way.

Meaning, we dont need to change our clothes a thousand times just so that we would look at par with our glamorous friends the next day, we dont need to stress ourself with unnecessary tension; we dont really have to listen to what other people have to say. In other words, dont think too much.

Life is actually so much simpler if we just live to make ourselves happy, not others,

Life is much simpler when we are rejecting all negative things and swallowing all things positive.

Life is much simpler when we dont think too much.

hey, so your bestfriend's boyfriend doesnt like you? So what. Its his problem, not yours.

hey, so you dont dress that stylish like your friends? So what, as long as you feel good.

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hey, so you have a big test coming? So what, just study and give your best shot

hey, so you are fighting during assigments sessions? So what, its just assignments, and they are your friends, everything will be fine.

Hey, so some bitch is spreading rumors about you all over the world? So what, you know its not true, you loved ones knows its not true. She's probably jealous of you anyway.

So, is it true that life is actually simple?

This is for all low-self esteem people out there; you are who you are. Doesnt matter what people say. remember that mouth that insults you are just a bunch of human beings who are not satisfied with their own life like you do.

So you should be proud of who you are :)

and someday others will be too.you'll see. :)

latest gig :)

from this dump..

turned into::

Come one come all! to: ROCKIN` THE SUBURBS

for more info, click: psychedelicmusic

bloody hair

Owh bloody hair :(

after the afamosa trip, I decided to give my hair a trim. Just to cut out the dead split ends and also shorten my bangs. Unfortunately, the stupid hairdresser (which is not friendly and doesnt talk) cut out my bangs very very VERY short and my hair into shoulder length.

The saddest part is, my hair is really slow in the growing department. It took me one year to grwo it this long (the second and third photo) from just shoulder length. My boyf is happy and excited for my long hair, and so DO I. but now I look like V for Vendetta. Seriously. The first photo is what my hair looks like now. And i managed to hide my short vendetta bangs. But if you see it live, its DAMN ugly :(

and one more thing, it is okay to wear the yellow shorts and that mimpyngery t shirt to a hardcore gig? I want to wear the t shirt. so i bought the yellow short to go with it. Is it okay? or I look like someone whose going to the pasar malam?

tagged by pingping penguin 2

1) do you think you're hot?
haha, dependslah

2) upload your favourite picture of you!

3) why do you like that picture?
sbb time tu baru couple and im sincerely happy :D

4) when was the last time you ate pizza?
haritu, frozen pizza :)

5) the last song you listened to?
some hearts by carrie underwood (dedicated to my yayang, i mean every word of the song)

6) what are you doing right now besides this?
ym, myspace, sms with my bestfriends

7) what name would you prefer besides yours?
im happy with my name, thankyou, although ivanka trump would be great ;p

people i tag
1 ; hanis
2 ; eejat
3 ; dyla
4 ; harris
5 ; nazriq
6 ; wana

8) who is number 1?
my level mate, mms friend, housemate and bestfriend :)

9) number 3 is having a relationship with?
haha, not really sure rite now

10) say something about number 5?
best friend ever! always listen to my prob :D

11) how about number 4?
he's my junior, now becoming a lawyer kot?

12) who is number 2?
hahahaha, my partner in crime whom i miss so badly :(

13) finally, tell about number 6.
my primary schhol friend who i meet again through facebook and blog :)

tagged by pingping penguin

1. 7 ciri wanita/lelaki idaman anda.
- sweet
- tak terlalu emotional
- tak vain
- love me for me
- understanding
- can be my bestfriend :)
- tahan dgn my perangai manja and ngada ngada

2. 7 wanita/lelaki yang pernah anda minati sepanjang hidup.
- zabarie talep <3333
- abdul qahhar abdul jalal
- ahmad fahmy fahd abdullah (jujur nih, kalau tipu pun org tetap tau jugak ;p)
- DOUGLAS SEAN ROBB
- PETE WENTZ
- SHANE CRUMPS
- Mohd Sabri bin ntah tak tau ape

3. 7 perasaan sekiranya keluar dengan seseorang yang anda minati.
- nervous
- berdebar debar weyhh
- malu malu
- cover cun
- HAPPY GILER
- senyum non stop
- again, nervous

4. 7 tempat istimewa yang ingin dilawati bersama pasangan anda.
- prom :)
- funfair yg cikai
- Athens
- New York
- Mekah
- eiffel tower
- mana mana je yang ade dark sky filled with starts :)

5. 7 barangan/sesuatu istimewa yang mungkin akan anda hadiahkan pada pasangan anda.
- obviously, drumset
- my love (dah bagi)
- double pedal (dah bagi)
- cymbal (betul ke ejaan? yg kepingan drum tuhh)
- thsirt dan accesorie seperti wallet, selipar dan sbgainye (dah bagi)
- our anniv booklet every month :)
- zuriat yg hebat :D

6. 7 tajuk lagu yang akan anda nyanyikan untuk pasangan anda.
- just wanna be with you - hsm3
- in my life - asna
- tiger lily - matchbook romance
- lucky - jason mraz
- perfect match - ateens
- always be my baby - david cook
- goodbye - miley cyrus

7. 7 rakan yang anda tag dan mahu mereka buat PERIHAL 7 ini.WAJIB!!
- eejat ismail
- hanis zakiyah
- nik yasmine
- nazriq
- shahizwan
- ain zubaidah
- dyla

family ramba

heyho!

last weekend I had a family day. with the whole Q caterers crew.

Its kind of fun since we havent been doing the family thingy for quite sometime.

We had games, barbeque and a whole lot of catching up.

The way we grew apart now (the six cousins) is somekind of a preview of how the future will be like when we had our spouses and kids.

whatever it is, i miss the whole thing :(