future.

(cafe faculty of communications and media studies, lunch hour, 2010)

future.

hard word isnt it?

People keep asking me what I want to do after this. Usually I always know what I want. I had known what I want ever since I was 11 years old, and I make my way through.

I want to continue my masters. In Fashion Marketing and Merchandising, which malaysian colleges dont offer. I really want to go to London school of Fashion but the requirement is 1 year working experience.

I also want to work. I like what I'm doing now, but I dont think I will be offered the job :(

So I need to make preparations if I dont get it right?

So everyone who's asking me things, here's what I'm going to do:

After 29th April, I shall take a rest for two-three months, while finding the right college and scholarships. If i was offered a job, then I will take it and take Masters part time :)

update.

Since its been just sooo long since I've updated this blog (thanks stalker), its kind of impossible to post about every single thing that had happen betwand een the last time I posted until now. But i can tell you this much; I have been full with activities every weekend.HAHA

and after mama's operation and she had to stay at my auntie's  house for a month for recovery, she finally get to come home last night. yeayy :)

anyway, so far so good at work. getting closer to more awesome people and i start to feel like i belong, finally.

and saya sgt sentap mengenai dua perkara, AD and PD. but whateverlah, I have passed that emotional stage and I really dont care.

Anyway, till next time :)

backinbsnes

minta maaf lama tak update.

ini adalah disebabkan saya terpaksa menukar URL blog ini sebab saya ada stalker.

but now i am back in bussiness, okay? :)

Its HIM

saya rasa saya dah mula tertekan kerana

jerawat mula naik randomly and start migraine balik and yes, makan terlampau but tak effect my weight.

that is the usual symptoms that I have every semester during finals.

and after weeks of analyzing and blaming myself. REALLY blaming myself,

after a long good talk with berrie and my sister,

I realized that its HIM, not me.

He tries to bring me down, shutting down every good thing about me, making me lose my self confidence .

and when he's not around, I realized that I am back to being CONFIDENT and very HAPPY.

so I made up my mind, if I dont make it, then I will pursue copy writing or magazine industry.

wish me luck for another 2 and a half months okay?

climbing.

working my way up very slowly and surely :)

hoping everything will be better soon.

aminnn.

Happy CNY!

Happy Chinese New Year 2011 :)

Hope I will have a happier year and more calm-ness this time.

and happy to be catching up with friends during this holidays too :)

marriage?

lately, everywhere i go all I can see and hear is marriage marriage marriage :)

I guess I'm at THAT age now where everyone around me is getting married.

Today I had a little talk with my BFF hafriz about marriage.

It was fun.

we've been talking about this since we first know each other wayyyy back when we were younger. but today finally we can talk about it seriously with all the details.

It was nice :)

The time has come where I need to think and plan my life. When and how and what.

I still need to have my career and I need to continue my masters (which is in about 8 months) and I need to think about HIS financial status, education and career too.

but Insyallah, ada jodoh, adalah. Tak kesahlah bila waktunya :)

but still. can't wait! haha

and congratulations to the many many people who I know that will be getting married soon :))

regret.

"letting me go" will be your biggest regret.

downer

I love my job. seriously.

I love what I'm learning and doing.

but one thing about me, saya hanya selesa dan akan menjadi diri saya yang sebenar apabila orang yang saya berinteraksi itu memberikan feedback positif. and yes, I need to know what I'm doing and talking about.

Seriously,I am not timid and definitely NOT shy.

I am loosing my self confident bit by bit when "people" keep saying that I dont know how to make friends and what not.

Seriously, you dont know who I REALLY AM.

Saya okay je, only that I tak masuk with some ppl. I think everyone is like that. I wont fake it. If I cant fit with certain group, then I wont, because that would be faking it. But I will try.

Please notice that I do interact with ppl that I am comfy with. Cant you see?

I am sorry if I am not good enough for you, but I did try my best. If you cant see and accept that and still think that I am not worthy and keep making me feel stupid and all things negative, its your call.

I will pursue my dream and when I get it, I will make sure that you will regret it.

Day 7

DAY 7 - 10 Important people

1. Suhaimah Ahmad, the greatest wonder woman of all time
2. Zabarie Talep, the one who never fails to make me smile
3. Hafriz Jamil, the bestest best friend anyone can ever have
4. Hanis Zakiyah Maketab, the girl who knows me the most
5. The Jods, my oldest, greatest, fantastic, superb girls <3
6. The Puks, my greatest girls who are the reason of my happiest memories
7. My Siblings, whatever happens, without you guys, life would never be the same

happyaniv!

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY ZABARIE TALEP!

its been 3 years and 4 months and i love every minute of it.

i love you sayang and i am very happy to be with you.

tahan dengan perangai i k sayang sbb saya sayang awak sangat sangat <3

i love you zabarie talep :)

pay-pay-payment

saya kena amek allowance saya via check dekat HQ Astro.

Bila pula saya akan ada peluang hendak ke sana.

Huwaaaaaaaaaaa

Nak payment ;(

Day 6

DAY 6 - 10 Items you cant live without

1. Money
2. Handphone atau sebarang jenis alat telekomunikasi
3. Mirror and comb
4. Eyeliner
5. My external hard disk
6. My music player

again, cant think of any ;p

Day 5

DAY 5 - 10 Wishes

1. I wish i will get accepted to any fashion magazine and will be doing what I love after I graduate
2. I wish I will get to wear the ANC sash
3. I wish he would fall in love with me
4. I wish I will complete my Masters in the given time, first class honors
5. I will mummy will be happy again
6. I wish i will never ever meet fake people again
7. I wish my relationship with my best friends will be stronger than ever and lasts forever
8. I wish Zabarie Talep is my soulmate, and we will make each other happy until the end of time
9. I wish I will own my own successful publishing house one day
10. I wish God will open up my heart and change me into a much much better person. Aminn

Day 4

DAY 4 - 10 Things you want to say anyone

1. despite whatever happens, i still appreciate the friendship we had before :) - maizatul nadiah
2. i am trying my best to show you that i'm worthy 
3. please don't make me feel so down. awak tak kenal saya sepenuhnya lagi ;(
4. whenever I feel down, I always think of you to make me smile - zabarie talep
5. No other man in the world can make me feel what you make me feel - zabarie talep
6. YOU ARE THE BEST - mummy <3
7. I want to be the best for you despite all my wrong doings - mummy
8. You are my bestfriend, my everything. No other can replace you as my number 1 BESTFRIEND in the world - hafriz jamil
9. I always miss you guys and i really hope our friendship wont change sampai mati - The Jods
10. we had our ups and downs, and I want you to know I appreciate your friendship and I will be the best friend you ever had too - Hanis Maketab

Day 3

DAY 3 - 10 Things you hate

1. fake people
2. snakes
3. vegetables
4. soya bean in any form
5. politics

i cant think of any.haha. update later

love-quiz

i took a love quiz out of boredom.

my result is:

Your score is 84. This is love for sure, but there are a few things that make it clear this one wont be the 'great love of your life.' Enjoy it while it lasts but don't beat yourself up if things fall apart. The next time you feel love it will be even better

Day 2

DAY 2 - 10 things YOU LOVE

since it says things, i'm assuming ppl doesnt count right? hehe

1. shopping
2. fashion
3. animals
4. cam-whoring
5. all things romantic
6. the colour of blue
7. new york, paris, greece and athens
8. music
9. singing loudly
10. karaoke

10 days

lets play this.

for ten days, you have to write 10 different things about something.

lets begin day 1.

DAY 1 - 10 things about you :)

• I love my mother more than anything in the world
• I am deeply in love with shopping
• I'm hoping to own my very own publishing house one day
• My biggest interest is fashion and music, and yeah, i love animals so so much, except for long ones
• I hate people who is FAKE, as in kutuk orang nak kaw kaw, then baik pulak dengan orang tu and yes, I HATE SNAKES
• I am obsess with Miley Cyrus and Douglas Sean Robb
• I am not easily intrigued
• I am very childish and very very manja
• Yes, I can be a bitch sometimes
• I appreciate friendship and believes that a small close group is better than big groups of friends but its all superficial

today was a fairytale

spend the day with baby today.

sebab esok dis pegi recording.

awal awal merajuk tadi.hehe

then dah okay.

and you make me shop again saayaaang!

and thanks for the shoes :)

iloveyouberyberymuch <3

karaoke!

Last weekend I get to spend time with my BFF, hafriz jamil :)

and the week before brunch with my ladies :)

anyway, lastweek hafriz dengan baik hatinya bersetuju menemai saya untuk ke konsert JUSTIN BIEBER pada 21 april ini :)

at first i wanted to buy the RM288, but the seating sucks. Go and take a look at the seating charts and you will understand why. So i decided to buy the RM358. I know MAHAL, but its Bieber kotttt.hehe

and after that we spend the day karaoke dekat neway OU. Almost 4 hours plus okeh! only the two of us.

Memanglah lepas geram! hahaha.

Hafriz, lets do that again sometimes OKAY?

RIP JIJI

Jiji, my female syrian hamster passed away on the 15th January.

I miss her so much.

I really do and I am still so sad.

3 weeks in

3 weeks in for practical training.

13 more weeks to go.

the hardest challenge would be waking up early everyday. thankgod, tak jam sangat, so I can leave the house as late as 8.30am if i want to :)

but my body is catching up with me. I no longer feel cold and freezing to the stage where I have to close the aircond after I took a bath and I dont wake up every 30 minutes in the middle of the night anymore. 

and yes, I sleep very early nowadays and yes, wake up early without my consent too.

i'm still learning and sometimes I just feel stupid.

the real world is nothing like studying. I mean, the people here are cool and nice, but I feel like I am not good enough fro the real thing.

haaih, its just hard to explain ;(

Hanis and Hafriz kata, relax je, i am still learning. I'm a good student and I will be a good worker soon too.

Berrie just says that I will get it eventually, its still early and afterall, he says, I always get what I want. haha

well, lets just hope its all true what they all said.

AMINNN

jumaat

today hari jumaat.

boleh bangun lambat.

yeayy.

rindu.

time time buat kerja masa practical, buat saya rindu pulak dekat

sir khairuddin othman

and

sir khairudin murad

kalaulah sir sir sekalian ade untuk membantu sqaya membuat kerja ;(

dapat bayang kritik kritik yang akan diterima, but atleast you guys will help me.hehe :)

insaflah

dalam masa dua minggu ini sahaja, firah zulkifli telah mengshoppingkan diri dengan rakusnya dan telah membeli:

tiga pasang kasut

tiga jacket

satu handbag

sehelai skirt

sehelai shift dress

sebelas blouses and dresses

lima necklaces

astro

My first day today :)

Bangun sangatlah pagi sebab nak usha timing berapa tuk sampai office bukit jalil

Then reached astro DAMN early.

Orientation was cool, everyone is so friendly and I can already tell it's going to be SUPER FUN.

Thanks to budak budak broadcast yang ada tadi, atleast I'm not alone :)

Although you guys are going to be placed FAR from me

tapi atleast hamzani berkongsi kesengsaraanku dapat office solo.haha

FYI, i'm in the content control MARKETING department in Seri Kembangan.

Tiap tiap hari shopping juscolah nampaknya ;p

so far..

2011 has been good to me, SO FAR.

and yes, i've been shopping like no body business. :)

2011

hello new year 2011!

Please be good to me okay?

Alhamdulilah kerana masih dikurniakan nafas duntuk melihat keindahan ini

semoga tahun ini menjadi lebih baik dari tahun sebelumnya

semoga dikurniakan segala kebaikkan dan rezeki dari-NYA

semoga hilang segala masalah dan kegusaran hati

dan semoga kebahagiaan sepenuhnya dapat dikecapi dari semua segi

tenangkanlah hatiku di kala tahun baru ini dan berkatilah perjalanan hidupku

aminnn.

jom!

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and 

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